nothing is different, everything will always be the same no matter how hard i try i will always feel this way. someone should just kill me and let it all be over with. ill never change i never really wanted to but now if i dont everything will be damned. im damning everything to hell and i cant cry not now. too much anger and pain that brings ( Read more... )

well its friday i doubt anything will be going on tonite, but it doesnt matter everyday is the same anyway. carlos is still asleep, i hope everything is going to be ok when i move to kileen, i want him to go with me but he doesnt want to. its bullshit but what can i do. i just dont want to lose him, but i figure if we are meant to be we will be ( Read more... )

some one tell me who i am! some one stay with me, please hold my hand. i need to kno that everything is going to be ok. i need hope, i need laughter, im tired of being hunted after. please let them know im not as bad as the world wants to show.why cant they see? why do they act like they dont know me? turn me around! hurry, before my life is all ( Read more... )

I was playing hide n seek, i could see you but u did not see me.

I told you id be gone by the time you got out of the shower.

You never knew i could be such a sneaky predator.

I saw you look out the window and look out the door.

You didnt see me so you channel surfed.

10 seconds pass by n the you come really close to where i hide

but u just go ( Read more... )

well i just wrote this shit but for some reason it magically disappeared so here i go again.......
ok SATURDAY NIGHT was the motha fukin shit, we (carlos & I) went to this party with charlie and nimmy, and the are on the mesa state radio station and they play kick ass music, ok and this party was all the kids from the radio station, there was a keg ( Read more... )

I lost my head the last time i ever want to feel dead no more power i took every thing in vein i was the one everyone talked about cuz i temporarily went insane but now baby every thing will be ok, i once took you for granted but ive seen the way. the light on my face the gravity holding me down the time u turned my smile into a frown, but life is ( Read more... )

well i am here at school with about 20 mins left to go and i have not a damn thing to do but think, and im thinking about sum1 and i am thinking about myself and wut it is that i am going to encounter in the future and then i think that i dont want to think about the future bc its not all that good for me to think about things that havent happened ( Read more... )

Oh mY Fukin God i feel great, my self confidence level had risen for sum reason it all happened last friday (Rics bday) i was buzzin cuz we were playing that stupid drinking game and i went to the rest room and i was reflecting back on wut i had just been doin which was sitting with my homeboi's (Ric n his cus:James(1sttimemeetinghim),Frank, ( Read more... )

im bored as fuk and im at school but atlest this will be my last day until the 14th cuz i am switching to night classes cuz i got a job thank the lord, now i dont feel like such a piece of shit,i make 100 from tito every month and now i am getting paid 5.15 an hr for like 4*3=12 + 5= 17+4=21 hrs a week maybe 5.15 21 515 10300 108.15 so ill be ( Read more... )

god ppl are crazy talking about camel toes ahhahahahhaha, at school, leticia ask me WUT IS A CAMEL TOE???? heads turned. well im almost outa class like 5 more mins so i just thought that id write in this thing bc i have nothing else to do sooooooooooo. well lately things have been pretty good, i feel like me and robert are getting closer i feel ( Read more... )