my head is about 100% ready to explode. wtf am i doing these days??!?!?

i cant quite put my finger on it, but recently, i feel about a billion miles from everyone i know.  even my family seems so distant these days, and there just isnt any reason i can think of for it. maybe people just dont want to be around me because im getting emo all the time now (i mean it in a joking manner, if it finds you offended, bite it ( Read more... )

it has been to damn hot here. its been to hot everywhere. and it sucks, really. thats all i wanted to say, for now.
and yes, seeing you before you leave is a requirement i've made for myself. so, let us brainstorm!!

never trust the Olive Garden. they will cut you off on soup eventually, and damn them to hell for it. jet boats are good news, except when you dont hold on and get tossed out, jamming your finger and almost breaking a leg. but, ill admit, even though im sore as hell today, it was TOTALLY worth it.   in any case, im off to do something less ( Read more... )

yay, film festival next week!! which is basically a glorified way of saying im going to go watch movies late at night at the open space here in TC. and its gonna rock.
in other news, i finally broke down and got a cell phone >.< .  damned able contraption makes me to easily reached, i swear it

does hanging out with tom mean i have to see her again?
god forbid i go down THAT road again...

I thought i had gotten over it. but apparently, i havent. it's been almost 8 months since i've even thought about her, and still, im angry at the mere mention of the name. i suppose it was that day we watched him leave... memories can be so fleeting some ( Read more... )

the movie click bothered me.  moral lessons seem to be lost on the greater amount of society. that, and i saw it under i weird premise. like, it was, a date. and THAT, able bodied listeners, is right fucked up. but enough about this or that. im sleepy, ive work in the morn, and im dirty. all in all, its been a good weekend. and tom gets here ( Read more... )

beware, for phantasmal colors lie ahead! but in all seriousness, i jest. im really only leaving a post right now because it felt like the right thing to do.
and, california? o.O

working sucks. but, money is good. being stuck in TC sucks. not finding people to make a small trip north, sucks. life is beginning to suck. but then, i remember that there are skunks outside on te lawn, "doing the nasty". and that makes me laugh, and reminds me that everything is ok.

someday, i wont be a let down to anyone...

ive come to realize lately that regardless what setbacks there may be, and no matter how useless i seem as a human being, there is always someone out there who will love me ( Read more... )