Its been a while..... So im grounded , which sux. But what can ya do. Brittany and I mutually decided that we should be just good friends. And baseball is going really really well. we are 9-2 and kicking some ass along the way. I dunno what else to say there isnt much else going on. I just cant wait for school to be over.

So last night after practice a bunch of us went to Gios for dinner. There were 12 of us : me, brandon,taylor,courson,mike,paolo,rathmann,lauren,maddy,ekin,and limey. oh and nas came later ...so 13. It was really fun bc at the end of the night i ended up with one of the hostess' phone numbers haha. She is so hott.

I had a crazy night saturday night. Ok so Brandon and I were out and we heard about thi party that was going down at the marriott and were going to go, but then we heard that this girl named Whitney was going to be there. haha. so we were bored but then i called my friend caitlin and she had just gotten bak from Italy with the soccer team,so i we ( Read more... )

So its over and done with for good. And the surprising thing is......im not sad at all. I mean maybe a little disappointed that it didnt work out, but overall I feel at peace. Its weird, like i poured my heart out tonight, everything i have felt in the past week ana half, i let it out. And even though it wasnt accepted, i feel a huge weight lifted ( Read more... )

damn it , i didnt get to talk to her last night bc she was sick. Its ok, i dunno i just really wanted to get everything out and apologize for everything, but maybe i will get to talk to her this weekend. I dunno maybe. I dont even kno if she wants to hear what i have to say nemore. ugh. well im going to practice so bye

I havent written in here for a couple days. After tommorrow night things will be settled. Either way ......bad or good. It doesnt matter, the baseball season starts a week from today, and i cant be wrapped up in this drama anymore. I just need to say the things i need to, and either way she can do with them what she wants.

ok so here the situation ( Read more... )

you know what, i dont think anyone will ever understand. I honestly dont think i did anything wrong. I went over to a girls house at 1 in the morn to straighten some shit out that needed to be fixed. I never liked her once wells and i started going out, she(christie) knows it , i know it. Yea i started to like her b4 i went out with wells, but i ( Read more... )

I have no feelings anymore. I have no heart, it was torn out. But i tore it out. I fucking ripped out my heart and watched myself die. I am dead. the only one i ever loved, is gone. and my heart is beatless on the ground. Apathy here i come.

I dont know what to do, im so confused. im stuck by a fork in the road and i dont kno which road to take. I feel so strongly for her , but something is keeping me bak, i dont know what it is. All i want is for it to be just her and i.