Shiv and I joined a gym yesterday. He has a way of coercing me into these things, without little effort. A couple of weeks ago we were in the shower and he kept patting on his soft belly, sighing over and over, "oh my god". Our friend Ben, Brian and Lizzy had all recently joined the LA Fitness on Weilder and it seemed like he was feeling left out. ( Read more... )

just released.
http://sasquatchmusicfestival.blogspot.com/2008/03/lineup.html

this marks the start of something. and i hope i can let myself just be myself and enjoy it while its happening. not having a job makes it harder. soon enough my bank account will be dry and it will be even harder. so this is part of being an adult, i suppose. fully aknowledging ones responsibilities and questioning your own capability to meet them ( Read more... )

it's cold, and there are crows.
gray fog.
diesel engines.
burn piles.
saws and timber.
it's not home, but it's close.

didn't make a film. an actor bailed, funds didn't come through, and permits weren't approved. i'm beat. has this whole summer, post-oregon been a waste? no, it hasn't. but i sure wish my script could have been shot. instead, im choking down concerta with a ten dollar bottle of vodka and hiding under a pile of books. i sorta like this homebody thing ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1j79y7i10FY

broke my hand last night. and yes, alcohol was involved. very foolish. more details later, when i can type with both hands. i'll upload the photo of the xray to-nite.

oh god, la strada. fellini, you are perfection. my sleeping schedules all whacked. after a week of staying up late, writing papers, the work gets done but i loose that pattern. you know, the sleep, wake, sleep, wake thing? yeah. i made a dumb move last week. i was riding my bike across chapman ave. and having ignored the traffic lights ran right ( Read more... )

everyone is somewhere at 11:11. sixty seconds.

fell asleep reading an article. wes came into the bedroom and woke me up, said shiv called and then disappeared into the bathroom for some time (probably to cry in the shower for an extended period). didn't want to go back to sleep. read my articles then started and nearly finished angels in america ; heavy, heavy words. i think i'll pass out ( Read more... )