ive only moved in a few hours ago, but i love it already. i forgot that having your own room rules. it is what some might call..freezing in here, but that can be fixed. i need an extension cord or two and thats really it. my mom made chocolate chip cookies tonight and also chili. it was lovely. she also gave me a duck bowl which is easily the ( Read more... )

so for about three weeks now i have been fighting concerns that i was about to meltdown. today at work, i melted the fuck down. i sat in the kitchen and cried. and not just a little. i didn't just tear up. i actually cried. and it was ridiculous. i usually don't let assholes get to me at work but i think today it was like everything at once. ( Read more... )

in 2007..

i realized i am a terrible judge of character
i made a lot of bad decisions
i completely lost myself
i gave too much
i finally saw the beastie boys!
i let myself be taken advantage of
i wrote a lot
i had the most awful few days i could imagine
i had the hardest / worst few weeks of my life
i read a lot
i cried for almost a week straight
i turned 21!
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 i'm trying really really hard. i can't stop thinking but i can never come to any sort of decision or conclusion or realization that makes me feel any better. i think all of these things but i still have nothing to say.  i need to stay busy. when i slow down and am alone i just can't handle it.  right now im sad, nervous, unsure, angry, hopeless, ( Read more... )

 
A 1st grade school teacher had twenty-six students in her class.  She presented each child in her classroom the 1st half of a well-known proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the proverb.  It's hard to believe these were actually done by first graders.  Their insight may surprise you.

1.

Don't change horses

until they stop ( Read more... )

 so i sometimes think that the only way i stay somewhat sane is by writing pretty much daily. usually it's just kinda this is how i feel blah blah. yesterday i wrote this whole thing about how i am looking at life and shit like that. and it made me feel good about where i am and where i'm going and all that crap. and for some reason the way i was ( Read more... )

i hate winter. it just need..allchange.

break was amazing. i love gay clubs cause every single guy wants to dance with you and that's definitely all they want to do with you. and it's fantastic.

i am hungry and i need a job. so i am going to take care of that now.

flash. lights.

oh man. right now i feel pretty good. for no reason really. things are changing lately. i never really just feel okay. i either feel really sad and like i'm about to cry or i feel happy and excited like i do now. it doesn't really come from anywhere, either. it just happens. so that's what i'm doing lately. i downloaded the angels and airwaves and ( Read more... )

 i want to go home and stay there.
i haven't felt like this in.. a week. i thought i wasn't upset anymore. everything is bothering me. i hate it.
 i feel like i don't have anything to look forward to. it's just shitty day after shitty day. 
i don't want to do this anymore.

maybe i am getting better. i didn't cry that much yesterday..so that's good. there are times when i get so close to sending him a message or something but i haven't. and i think i should just never talk to him again, who cares if he has my car key right? it is hard but so far i've done it and it's getting easier.  hating him makes it easier. i don' ( Read more... )