I haven't updated in ages. A lot has happened.. Some things, I can't write about. I had my first therapist appointment the other day. It went ok, though I still have my fears about opening up to an adult about my problems. She seems nice enough. She wants me to see a psychiatrist as well as her. So now im seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist or ( Read more... )

Today I got to meet the infamous Josh, Mack's new boyfriend. They make a cute couple; I approve... I feel sorry for her. She is madly in love with Mark across the way in England, and he loves her too even though they are both dating other people now. You can just tell that one day they are going to get married and make babies and live happily ever ( Read more... )

This has just been the worst week ever. Tomorrow is Sunday, the start of a new week. I barely have hope that things will get better, but I know some things will. Maybe school will get easier. I don't know. Maybe things won't get better, but at least I will start to get used to it all. That is something in itself to look forward to ( Read more... )

I am so stressed right now. I have a project due in Humanities on Tues and I can't find my folder or notebook with all my stuff in it for that class. meep! Its not in my locker. Its not in Mack's house or car. I can't find it anywhere in my house. I am hoping its in Jess's car. Otherwise I am so screwed! *tear* Not to mention I really need to pick ( Read more... )

How I do enjoy our new before/after school driving music. :) Brings back memories since I haven't listened to them in such a while ( Read more... )

I didn't go to school today. I haven't had the energy to do anything other than sleep. I hate being sick. :( Colds suck. meep ( Read more... )

I'm eating pizza tonight for dinner. That's desperation right there ( Read more... )

I need to cry right now. But I can't. I don't know what to do or say or think about any of this. Fuck optimism right now. Why did this have to happen this way? Why did tonight happen??? That was the last person I wanted to see. Let alone at that particular place. I wish I could cry. I'm hurt more than anyone will know for more than one reason and ( Read more... )

Today was a mellow day. I took my habitual 2 hour-ish long nap since I didn't have to work. I think I might have died without it ( Read more... )

I officially survived the first day of school. I have a shit-load of homework to do too. :( And I almost lost it the other night at work when I found out I would be working 5 nights a week as the late server more often than not, staying some nights till 1 in the a.m., and I don't have a gun to shoot myself. But thats alright because I am giving ( Read more... )