And im not even sure whether to love or hate it.....i look sick, emaciated. etc but at the same time im drawn to staring at it and i dont know if i love or hate it! ugh, I dont even know what i want, normal or not normal! im lost and confused and refuse to be fat!

 
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Well the embed didnt work, but i made this on youtube last night. lemme know watcha think.

Not alot going on, josephs 3 and jordynne turns 2 on xmas day. still in germany till who knows how long, jasons still hurt, he goes back and forth to landstuhl to figure out his back , hes going into the WTU though wich is kinda good. I was working at subway here but recently had to quit , childcare was becoming a pain in the butt so tuesday i ( Read more... )

THis year started off crappy, sunday the day before new years eve i drove to landstuhl to se jason,the fisher house is where army or military familis get o stay for free when there loved one are at landstuhl , i got theree late Sunday night so the kids went right to sleep, the people that manage the place didn't come in until the morning, like the ( Read more... )

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havent updated here in forever, im using myspace more, jason left for afghanistan tuesday its not to bad, i was dealing with anxiety and depression before he left , i got on lexapro but i was still having anxiety and stuff so she upped it to 20 mgs but i just got worse it sucked, anxiety attacks are the worst. Now i am on zoloft i feel happier, ( Read more... )