I hate my life and if not for being involved with so many things I would probly really F it up and go Boom

I was thinking and im really must be fucked up or disliked. someone i know has been in home school for more then half his life and has had 2 girl friends and been kissed where i have been in public school for my whole life had 1 girl friend and never been kissed. this is a really fucked up world ( Read more... )

Ok so this topic is going to be contradicting itself the whole time but at the same time not ok...first of today was a friends B-day and it was really cool cause it like the second party i have been inbited to all year. and i was going good and all then i just started getting depressed cause i saw how happy everyone was with the person they had and ( Read more... )

Ya ok something is really wrong with me. first off today i didnt care about anything and was completely alone not only mentaly but physically. it really sucked and like in my ASL class i slept on the floor cause my teacher wasnt in class and then i slept in the PAC instead of helping decorate for Listen to my Hands. then on the way home while ( Read more... )

Ya something is wrong with me and i know and accept it now. i have some form of manic depression which causeses me to think what the world would be like without me and if anyone would care if i dissapered and stuff. its quite a fun little thing to have. well im off ( Read more... )

color guard score tonight 4th out of nine so ya that was cool and being equipment crew has its perks (being surrounded by like all my friends at all times and being the only one aloud to have soda befor a comp). so ya thats my update for now

Will

Hey i dont update this much anymore but i thought i would tell anyone who is depressed or anything a good thing today is Meditate and write poetry so far this past week i have been the more relaxed i have been in like a year its been really nice. ok that was my update for today and maybe for awhile unless something big happens.

Will

hey i was all happy and stuff this weekend but the second i get back to school i become depressed as hell. besides being so alone and all i was told Fuck you by a friend. its not what they said cause i have heard it from friends all the time and said it to people but all thoughs times its usually a joke but i know this person actually fully ment it ( Read more... )

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Ya im bord and so i thought i would update. I am predicting a huge depression attack tomorrow. hmmm i wonder why? maybe it will be all the darn love things and all the couple things...no that couldnt be it.