i had some time on my hands today so i decided to meditate to try and relieve some stress and get some answers that i know can only come from inside myself i was having a hard time clearing my mind and not getting emotionally attached to my thoughts i was trying to acknowledge them but then let them go i was getting nowhere when suddenly i heard it ( Read more... )

my worst fear is now my reality everything i saw as a child that happened to my mom is happening to me and no one knows it but him and me its happened quite a few times i try to put it out my mind but it doesnt work i feel the sting i hear the sound i taste the tears my life flashing before my eyes why cant i get out why is it so hard i love him ( Read more... )

Have u ever been so tired of the ways things were going that you thought you might lose your mind all the work that want to change doesnt seem to make a difference you see what you have to do, you have a goal but its so damn hard staying on the right path i dont want to be alone yet i cant stand to be with him i thinks hes all i need yet i ( Read more... )

so i did what i thought i couldnt do im so proud of myself for that fact but not proud of the fact that it had to happen im not mad or upset im not angry ive contented myself to the type of relationship that it is i think at this point im numb to everything i even tried phyically inflicting pain on myself it didnt hurt me near a much as i thought ( Read more... )

10 lbs 1 day not eating + 3 stacker 3 and 2 lipodrene

i went off on my bf he called me fucking emotional i couldnt get ahold of him all damn day and i needed to talk these pill make you think anyway he sicked his mom on me talking about how i shouldnt take them cuz they might hurt me i have no control over anything in my life im not giving up control over my body i cant take this shit i have never ( Read more... )

im so fucking upset i hate myself more then anyone could know i put on a happy face because thats what people want they dont want to know your heartaches you do not know how badly i want to die how i want to change my life or end it i just took 2 stacker 3 with ephedra and 2 lipodrene downed them with diet green tea i dont even care if they kill me ( Read more... )

i am dead

i dont know how to get out i want to get out i dont like this it scares me too much i dont feel safe i want to run i want to let it go i want it to end i want it to stop and it wont i cant let it go im forced to listen to this and not being considered i know my past im scared or my future its not healthy im scared i dont like it im scared im scared ( Read more... )

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