.:whispered:. him: "...your fat ( Read more... )

I wake up thinking about binging, I spend my day thinking about what I just ate or what I want to eat or what I can say to justify to myself binging. I then go to bed with the guilt of the day. I either bing or starve. The longest I've gone without eating was roughly 3 months. I lived off of diet pop and sometimes a protein bar ( Read more... )

Why is it that Asians are considered exotic, Caucasians are All American or innocent, Latino/ Hispanics are sexy or fiery, and Blacks are.... what I don't even know what they try and label us ( Read more... )

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

According to Kat Williams there is a property of weed called "fuck it" and once you have this property in you suddenly all your problems are much more manageable. Can't pay your light bill, smoke a little suddenly: " fuck that light bill, i have some candles i've been waiting to light ( Read more... )

its been a crazy long time since I've written in the journal. so many things are different except for one I'm still with him but things are a little different. i for one am owing up to my own issues and sexuality as well as feelings of shame and guilt, and not being good enough. at least on his part he has stopped hitting me,, i guess i give him ( Read more... )

im seeking professional help its the only way i know to prove to him that i care and love him and dont want ot live this way im hoping he'll come and help explain the situation but who knows i feel out of control with no one to help me and i am alone in the world hes given up and rejected me and said that he doenst love me anymore i never knew ( Read more... )

apparently its all been too much its over between us and my soul is died i dont know how it got this far or why it has to be this way, i dont feel like living or going on i dont feel like feeling i tried it and got so hurt i dont want to be around anyone or talk to anyone or deal with anyone i cant be happy i cant go on why am i so fucked up why is ( Read more... )

Your Birthdate: June 24
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What I am Required to Do:

1. i am required to be a kinder gentler person
2. i am required to speak to others in a respectful way
3. i am required to say what i mean and follow through with that

What I am not allowed to do:

1. i cannot give up
2. i cannot get frustrated
3. i cannot say hurtful things