god damnit is anyone listening? i am so mad and frazzled. i dont know what is going on. im enflamed with everything that is happening right now. It's like i know exactly why I am mad. but i dont want to admit it. im so mixed up in one thing that it's unhealthy. i go on such mood swings it is unbelievable. my emotions can change in a heartbeat. ( Read more... )

god damnit is anyone listening? i am so mad and frazzled. i dont know what is going on. im enflamed with everything that is happening right now. It's like i know exactly why I am mad. but i dont want to admit it. im so mixed up in one thing that it's unhealthy. i go on such mood swings it is unbelievable. my emotions can change in a heartbeat. ( Read more... )

thanksgiving was fun. i love my family. i got to hold maddie for the first time today. i think she likes me cause she was content with me for a long time. im at my dads, its nice here. Aaron isn't home and my dad is at sherris thanksgiving ( dads fiance ). i like being home by myself. It gives you time to think, and reflect. so much has happened in ( Read more... )

i've been working way to much lately. I need a raise. shtis been good lately. Today i told my dad im not going to college, he gave me a dissapointed look but i got over it. I've been back and forth with this whole lust thing going on in my head. Do i or don't i like him, and if i do, will anything happen, it gets really old, but i love being with ( Read more... )

Great day yesterday, eric and mike came by my work about an hour before close and waited till I got off. Mike picked up natalie from her house cuz I was working, her mom kicked her out so she came out with us. The four of us picked up from sean and we went on the back roads. Eric gave me an intense speach about marijuana so I felt obligated to go ( Read more... )

Man, Schaumburg really reminded me of better days. For real, I remember goin out there every weekend and livin fast. But I guess I love it in Huntley too. I ended up going back to huntley last night after dinner with my dad because I missed my buddies, plus it was Vinces birthday so I had to be there. After work tonight I am going over to Tomas's ( Read more... )

I'm finally back in schaumburg, it feels like I havent been here in years. I'm havin dinner with my dad and then im hanging with mary after she gets off work, then I think we're goin to Juniors house. he lives rly close so we can just walk. this school break has been crazy. yesterday i got ripped with eric colleen and mike, then we went to vinces ( Read more... )

So today was great yet so shitty. Me Carissa Jermaine and natalie ditched last hour and we went to blue magic and natalie got her tongue pierced. It was intense. Her mom is going to kill her. Speaking of moms, mine sucks. We got in a gigantic fight today. Like massive. One more time and i will unleash my wrath. ahh parents are extremely lame ( Read more... )

So I finally got one of these. I'm too fucking lazy to write in an actually jouranl ( Read more... )