this thing is so fuckin gay. but we do it anyways. whats up? shits up. at this point in my life i feel like i am in a corny tv sitcom. but whatever.

chicken and beer

Balancing between the groups has been a battle. It's really hard. i love both of the groups so very much. i have 2 different kinds of fun when i am with each ( Read more... )

yay i am soo happy. I gave Jon my number and he's called me a few times. finally i've moved on. Jon is the shit too. just the way he looks at me i know he likes me too. We always smile when we talk to eachother. I'm kind of worried about the whole age difference tho. He's 21, and I am 17, but i know he doesnt care. The immaturity level might be ( Read more... )

damn. i had like a lot of shit written down but i had to erase it cause i cant let anyone read that shit. but you fucked up real bad with me. thats all im gonna say.

my dad is a real fuckin jerk off. Don't try to fuckin change me just for your stupid fuckin fiance, im your fuckin daughter mother fucker. Don't make me dress nice and wear make up and act like MISS SUSY HIGHSCHOOL CAUSE IM NOT. AND WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING WITH ALL THESE PICTURES OF HER IN YOUR HOUSE. YOU'VE NEGLECTED ME YOUR ENTIRE LIFE AND ( Read more... )

you know i had like 5 paragraphs on stupid emotionall shit that i just wrote , but i just deleted it all because no one wants to hear it...and no one cares. so fuck it and fuck you ( Read more... )

Oh I cant wait to get next you ( Read more... )

i dont know what was wrong with me yesterday. i was in an amazingly weird mood. well today was okay. marios family is fun . today was alright tho. i got some cool shit. my dad liked his gift so im happy about that. I am glad christmas is over, the holiday sort of exhausts me. and I beleive that this holiday is false. see it as how no one actually ( Read more... )

im back. it feels good. i missed them. you never really know what you have untill it is gone. Tomas's last party was perfect. really it was. I feel like things are a little different. i don't know why, but I think something has changed. tomorrow is christmas. i am kind of dreading it for some reason. I am dying to give molly her present. nothing ( Read more... )

last night i found out some hurtful shit. something i really would not have wanted to know. but ended up knowing anyways. They said it's not a big deal. Maybe it isn't. I really don't want to think about it, cause the more I think about it the worse I feel ( Read more... )