Things I wish I knew:

What I would be doing a year from today.

If we will ever be together.

If he even really loves me as much as he says he does.

If the past four years of my life were really worth it.

If I could disappear in a way that no one would miss me...

People and thier ability to be unaware of the consequences of thier actions in regards to others never ceases to amaze me ( Read more... )

Something within me didn't want to be alone so I called/text the three people I consider the closest to me.

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Don't even know why I had hope someone would console me...

Ever tried to scream and nothing came out ( Read more... )

it seems like no one gets it ( Read more... )

i just wanna be able to look someone in the face without feeling like a worthless piece of shit ( Read more... )

so frustrating ( Read more... )

Sooo much to do ( Read more... )

So I came back to Miami yesterday...

I still have no idea whats happening...

Im so confused...

I just want to be held and I wanna cry...

I just wanna cry and cry and cry and forget everything around me...

So it seems that no matter how hard I try it never works out the way I want it to ( Read more... )