I never really noticed this until today which is that I am reminded of someone who happens to be really dear to me but she will never fully understand that. I know she won’t, hell she is probably going to read this and think I am talking about someone completely different ( Read more... )

I wonder why some many people tell you one thing but really want to say another and it is only because they don’t want to hurt or scare or something of that sort. Come on now, it is a lot easier and less heartache if people just said what they really want to say instead of bullshitting all the time. For instance, if you are busy and someone keeps ( Read more... )

I am soo tired. I am tired of my school and the people in it. I am tired of my lack of love life (I am not use to not have a girlfriend for so long) and I am tired of my roommate along with all his pot smoking asshole buddies. I can't stand the people here, they are all just a bunch of assholes that have nothing better to do than to get drunk and ( Read more... )

I was wondering why is it that every relationship I get into I am always getting bored. I mean when I am in a relationship I always think I could do better or that I might be settling or something of that sort. But when I am not in a relationship I am soo God dam lonely. I feel like I am doomed to never find that right person. Of all the things I ( Read more... )

I just missed my first class yet again but this time it was because I didn’t change my clock to be one hour ahead. I couldn't believe it. I thought I woke up early for once only to find out that I was already way too late to even go to class. Jeez that sucks; I hope they don't give out homework.

I was always wondering why people make a great big fucking deal about someone's God dam birthday. It is not like you are getting younger or anything. I mean if you had a day were you became younger, now that would be a day to celebrate. I have always hated my birthday. Especially when I tell people that I don't like to celebrate mine and they do it ( Read more... )

My music class is like me going back to the fifth grade again. We just learned what notes are in class today. God help me through this class, I don't know if I can take it.

I am back at school. I just got a taste of what my classes are going to be like and I am not looking forward for any of them. This quarter is going to be the worst yet. I am trying to take it easy as long as I can because I won't have the opportunities later. I am going to become a hermit in here, I just know it. My computer is going to be my only ( Read more... )

The Chinese restaurants over here in Manteca are not the best but they do have their moments. But how could they not serve you tea as soon as you get in. They actually charge you, fifty cents. I couldn’t believe it; I guess I have been in the bay area for too long ( Read more... )

Well, I just came back from Fremont and was so tired that I just pass the fuck out. That trip was the most uneventful trip yet. I mean usually I make plans with friends that don't pan out but at least later we have some other ideas for something to do and have like a really great time. My day yesterday ended before it begun. One phone call just ( Read more... )