I ve done alot of soul searching in the past month or two and one of the main reasons for that is because that guy that I'm seeing (Dave) has gone through a huge transition... He went on probation, which means no Beer, or other substances... The whole beer thing is a big stretch for Dave as he doesnt know how to function without it... He's been ( Read more... )

I tell myself that I was doin' all right ( Read more... )

HOly Crap its been a while, i really dont know how to keep track of this thing, and sometimes I feel like I am writting to myself, because noones as interested in me as I am in them, to read my journal :-P... but I dont know,Christmas is like 16 days away Iam psyced, but for the first time Iam struggling with money during christmas... I had to buy ( Read more... )

Its been a few weeks since I last wrote... Wendy had another party that she said she wasnt going to have, and got upset about the fact that someone threw up in her toilet... it happened to be her hubby.... but wtver, the noises coming from the bedroom that night proved otherwise that she was still mad... We went to the trail of Terror, which was ( Read more... )

I know I havent updated this in a while, but I never have a chance to write in here... No special man in my life, and I am ok with that... Went to Tampa Florida a week ago with the LHS Marching Band... it was fricken nice there.. hah, I enjoyed the warm weather, and then we came back to NY. The Dome was yesterday, and the guard didnt have there ( Read more... )

In about 24 hrs, I will be almost in Florida, and that makes me rather excited :-) So much for decent men... I still wonder if there even out there... I dont have much to put in here besides that I am going to florida, with sore throat...gosh darn it :0D

Sometimes I feel like I need to shake myself ( Read more... )

I cant remember the feeling of being loved... I dont know if that possibility will ever work for me... Hanging out with an old friend made me remember why I stopped dating him, and I hate that I felt that way. I dont understand why iam so bitter, or why I seem to not care sometimes, but it happens... I hate myself when it happens, I just want to ( Read more... )

I am kinda nervouse, and kinda indifferent about alot of things right now... I dont really know how to feel... I am not ready for this feeling... I am scared

If I could remember what happened last night I would write about it :-P, I'll write when I start remembering.... :-D