i think emotions really are like the ocean. first of all, they are HUGE. there's probably no way we can really hope to explore them all, or understand even half of them. second, they meet the rest of the life right there at the shore, and this meeting can manifest itself with all different kinds of energies. there's your crystal smooth bay (ah ( Read more... )

well, i suppose that my emotional reboot (good term, jesse) has encountered its first hurdle. one of those situations where i care more than i want to, but have been hurt in the past, so my instinct is to guard and protect myself from further emotional injury ( Read more... )

the reawakening that i described in my last post has led, i suppose somewhat predictably, deeper into the land of "re". my world has consisted of a good deal of reminding. rehashing. revisiting. reconciling. reconstructing. (this has been facilitated by the fact that i MADE my husband bolt the damn bookcase to the wall, and i got to unpack my ( Read more... )

reading is a really cool thing. it is a primary tool to achieve so many different things: information, knowledge, even wisdom, distraction, escape. to name a few ( Read more... )

why is it that some days, you can look at the stuff, whatever it is, and be fine. you've either made peace with the stuff, or better yet, you've been able to have a positive perspective on the stuff. some days the stuff even makes you happy. how is it that the very same stuff can just turn on you, with no warning, reason, or even noticeable ( Read more... )

cause life will do it to you way worse than school will. fail to learn a lesson - it's back. learn the lesson, but fail to remember it the next day - you guessed it - back. it's life's little version of drill and kill. ha ha ( Read more... )

so, as i was laying in bed this morning, it dawned on me. a sum total of five different items that i was hoping would land on a different day could all be corrected to perfect alignment with my greatest desires if.....if......if i just play hooky and call in sick to work today. well, only to the first job anyway, leaving my workday at a 5 hour ( Read more... )

being a bridesmaid is no fun at all. i'm so glad that i didn't do that to people. ugh. my weekend sucked ( Read more... )

which was - i've realized that at this point in my life, it's ok for me not to schedule to do anything before 8am. 8am is a perfectly reasonable time for me to strive to get up everyday ( Read more... )

hm. i sometimes have interesting things to say. sometimes. will today be one of those times? hard to say ( Read more... )