well, there are a number of reasons for my return to this imperfect forum. lately, i find myself with an overwhelming amount to say, and quite honestly, no outlet for where to express it. so, my silly little livejournal, i come back to you, since I find that you may be the best place for me right now ( Read more... )

I have had many things to say, but little time to say them. At least, I find that I don't allow myself the time to sit down and digest all of my feelings much these days. Parenthood has a way of taking over. So, for those of you who I know and love, here is an update on the Linz ( Read more... )

i figure that i really should start chronicling my journey through pregnancy in a bit more detail, or at least what's left of it. considering that i have infinitely more time on my hands at this point in my life than i probably ever will again, it seems like a good idea. plus, there's lots of stuff stirring around in my head, and it would ( Read more... )

seriously. my husband has these moments more often than i do, and i hear him say to things "stop fucking with me!" and i tend to laugh (internally of course, never out loud) and think that he just needs to chill out and go with the flow. but, every once in a while, i get what he means. everything since about 7pm this evening has just been ( Read more... )

well, round 2 worked. i am currently 17 weeks pregnant, and it is quite the trip. 2 months of total nauseous hell, beginning right at the same time as my semester. now, finally feeling better, but still tired a lot. it is not so fun to be working maximum overload this semester, as i can't quite find the time to take as good of care of myself as ( Read more... )

i predicted this would not be the month, for various reasons. i didn't really quit my vices until 1 week into my cycle. then, i took a header and had major whiplash, which isn't so great for the body. then i got sick and stayed that way for a good 2.5 weeks. so i wasn't expecting major results in round 1 here, and i didn't get them. i'm not ( Read more... )

it's been two weeks and i haven't caved yet.

motivation is a silly thing. one can intellectualize whatever reasons there are in the world to do something. you can think about why you should do something until the cows come home and the chickens cross the road. you can understand that both the thing that you want/need to do (usually need, i guess) and these extremely rational reasons for ( Read more... )

i am perfectly aware that i will never be able to understand many of the perspectives that are out there to experience. some are just so foreign, so counterintuitive, and somewhere in the insulting/damaging/oppressive spectrum to me that i just can't comprehend what it's like to hold that perspective ( Read more... )

what a day. the first day of school can be many things. exciting, stressful, invigorating, overwhelming, hopeful, and depressing. today, it was all of them at once. which was a bit more than i really wanted to deal with, but so be it. i made it through. 1 down, god knows how many left. let's not start counting this early ( Read more... )