Last night I lost the ability to urinate by myself. I rushed over to the ER at 2:00 AM so that Kaiser could install a cathetor into my bladder. Sadly, it turns out that the hole in my penis is too small for even the smallest cathetors. So they had to call in a Urologist from his home at a round 4:00 in the morning. Meanwhile I was experiencing the ( Read more... )

I started out yesterday getting my head flooded with radiation at another hospital. I'm gonna have a total of ten of these radiation sessions. In a week or two I will lose my hair (but in theory not my beard). While I was at the other hospital, the doctor there sugessted that the reason my legs don't work might be because of a tumor on my spine, ( Read more... )

Firstly I'd like to say thank you for all the kind words that everyone left on my last entry. I realize that my life has had an impact on those around me. I just feel that I'm being cheated of the opportunity to have as much of an impact as I would like. In a way, the worst part of this is not that I may die, but the effect my death will have on ( Read more... )

I'm starting to lose feeling in my legs. Walking without falling down is difficult. The pain has gotten to the point that I cannot go a day without taking at least three doses of Endocet. I'm trying to remain hopeful that I may someday recover, but it is getting hard. Every treatment I've ever tried has failed, which doesn't exactly inspire ( Read more... )

I've taken to saying that I'm baked while on endocet. However, my good friend frumpleswift told me that the word "baked" is associated soley with pot, and that "stoned" would be a better word. Now, I've always thought it was the reverse, that stoned means high on pot, and baked can be any drug. I asked some of my stoner friends, and they said that both words ( Read more... )

I had a great time in the DC area with my sister. I got to hang out with Jon, Jen and Leila, and we went to King Street, the Asian art Gallery, and a bookstore/bar in Dupont Circle. On Friday we took a bus up to New York. We walked down Broadway and saw a jazz show at the Iridium club. They were playing the music of Thelonius Monk, who not only has ( Read more... )

Tommorow I go with my sister to visit the DC area. Much hanging out with Jon, Jen and Leila will ensue. I'll be there for 5 days. Yay ( Read more... )

So I tried using iTunes today, and I'm thoroughly unimpressed. I paid $0.99 for a song, but it wasn't in mp3 format. It was a protected AAC, which doesn't play in winamp. So I'm stuck with this file that won't play with ther rest of my music. I even tried downloading software to convert a file from AAC to mp3, but it didn't work. I suspect that ( Read more... )

This rant is courtesy of Jacki ( Read more... )

Beware the Ides of March!