Physical emotion. Our bodies are our emotions and the brain is impossible to sever. The mind is not a transcendant realm from our simplistic mechanics. Are true emotions only the ones that run the system haywire. I’m having trouble breathing. The air is there I think I just don’t want it. People starve their bodies although they have food right ( Read more... )

It always amazes me how orchestrated life seems. It's as if we're all on this beautiful acoustic stage playing for a baren auditorium without a written note to begin nor a conductor to follow. Somehow we find a harmony amidst our plethora of sounds in rectifying small moments of dischord and sidelong glances at the rhythm of distant sections. We ( Read more... )

Phase 1 in repairing the tears in fleshy emotion. I've found in my pastime of healing wounds that the stitches often hurt more than the original injury. Perhaps its better it bleeds in case my surgeon is silly enough to sew an empty space into being. I'm still confused as to how I ended up sitting here in this chair writing this ( Read more... )

I find I fold feelings more than I fold clothes. Get the whole pictures in 1/8 the frame and a lifetime in 2/29565 the time. So with these miracles in correct assumption from portional understanding we'd think Jessica of all people could find some clever way to write a documentary in under 300 words. Well no can do. If you can't do something ( Read more... )

So the Mexican excursion take 2 was a success this time. Yesterday I woke my ass up at 5am to drive 6 people and all their luggage to the airport in the back of one of the box trucks we use for work... well I drop them off and they miss their flight and so I had to drive back, get them and take them again today at 5am. Got home from kareoke at ( Read more... )

I quit this job. I'm far from defeated but I'm overwhelmed. I throw my chess pieces into the fickle folds of the current that flows on mockingly in it's stolid silence. I stare in disbelief, in angst, with eyes wrinkled with emotion; waiting for it to even pause in my loss, it continues however to transition ungratefully as it forges on, swallowing ( Read more... )

It's 5:13, a mental breakdown would be imminent if the mind were moving at all. It covers nothing. It goes nowhere. It flails sbout in putrid green water: tinged with the decay of a lover gutted. I grasp bloated flesh as I claw to the surface. I'm drowning in a beautiful glade after eagerly following an old dastardly man whom I knew meant to ( Read more... )

It's like I want to find away to say exactly what I'm trying to without saying it but eh oh well. Lets see, I'm officially not happy right now. Mandie's pissed off at me for God knows what cause she's never around for me to talk to. But hey thats what best friends are for right? Letting you down. I was just going to pack up everything tonight ( Read more... )

So I found this whole in the back of my head where people have been fuckin' my brain when I'm not looking. 1. I don't appreciate it. 2. I ask all responsible to come pick up your bastard children of thought... or send money. Lets see, lets see... The Jessicus has been so good about getting done what she needs to get done... so that stress is ( Read more... )

"You told me that you want to die. I said I've been there myself more than a few times, and I go back every once in awhile, you called me lucky, you, you called me lucky ( Read more... )