The subtle hum of nighttime and all through the house.. *click*.... they tell me. *click* and a response from somewhere in the house beyond my sight. *click* but all is beyond sight in the midst of enclosed darkness *click* And I fondle the curtains for some moonlight. Somewhere to hide. *click* It stops... momentarily. Then frustrated it ( Read more... )

OH yea! I remember. Miniserie. Oh miniserie strikes again. Just when life started not looking up at all there was Saturday.. Mandies' phone got lost... and well the next time walking into where I thought I left it I found pieces of it embedded into the parking lot... *sigh* So Saturday yea... went to the NIN concert which have to say has been my ( Read more... )

Time is ticking, work is waiting, time debating if it really need be... done? Eventually yes but now? And so is your argument at 5am. Sleep? ah but whats the good of 3 hours of sleep compared to 3 hours of work. I got my car back finally after a grueling 3 weeks of clipped wings while other pigeons hovered me over the fence to freedom. It works ( Read more... )

Today has consisted of a lot of trains of thought pulling into that oh so unmentionable station of the past. If only time didn't move so much faster than my minds priority to think of the present. It's like chronically slow reaction time. Little demons of heartache and responsibility piling papers on my desk of month old invoices long overdue and ( Read more... )

I mean... we all knew this. I feel so helpless right now. I'm a disorganized incompetent mess. What am I doing? Should I be doing it? Who? What? I miss my mother. I'm gonna have her cuddle me for the weekend. I think I have some sort of brain problem. I can't help but think everytime somebobdy talks about crazy people everyone is shooting ( Read more... )

One more of many more pathetic whimperings to add to the list of times I've cried when there was nothing worth crying about. Reminissing on days past when spilled milk was impossible and you wonder why they ever weened you off the bottle. Why happiness is no longer a 360 degree enjoyment but something taken back straight, head back, with a glass of ( Read more... )

Panels pass and panes crack and this whole set of disillusioned fantasy is straining under the the reality it's being abused by. The 2-D city I move through, tapping on hollow fiberboard and it reflects smiles of beauty beaming from the audience but this stage is not any comfort so I step down and return to my seat on the other side of this velvet ( Read more... )

I'm just really disgusted with myself. I rarely do anything that makes me disappointed in myself but in a short period of time I have done many of these things. I guess since I fucked one thing up, I should just go ahead and crumple up this whole essay and throw it towards the trash all because of one stupid mispelled word. I was never very good at ( Read more... )

Startings is never where I like to begin because.. really where do you begin? There's so many power hungry thoughts vying for attention that regardless of importance or priority they've become the faded democracy of nothing . No one can agree. A standstill. No progress. Nothing. So you stare at me with disbelief when I have nothing to say. There ( Read more... )

It seems I've reached that point where I went back to somewhere I once belonged and realized... I don't know what I was thinking. I tried to make the best of this vacation to West Virginia but my sister and my aunt kinda ruined it, or maybe I'm just a belligerent teenager (very possible... hey, I can't control my hormones). Regardlesss of the ever ( Read more... )