Hours later I can still smell him. Doing everything I can to perserve the smile he leaves me with. I know I'm not what he wants. But the way he makes me feel... I'd sell my soul at times. I could stare at him for days. But he'll never feel the same way back... not now or ever. If he'd just not make me laugh or look at me the way he does... ( Read more... )

Its easy to know who you are but hard to see what you've become.

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Not today, maybe not tonight... but I know by tomorrow it'll come out. I'll start to miss the choas of having a full house and the stress of having to entertain. I start to miss the smile and the glances. I start to miss Ty ( Read more... )

- Watching the Doctor's house in Woodinville.
- Tyler, Andy and Auborne are the greastest Brittish guys ever.
- I work to much.
- Feafer, JJ, KiKi, Charley, Jacob and Nicole have been everything to me.

- I love it.

I am a beautiful mess.

JJ and I haven't had one of our famous lets keep eachother up talking all night, talks in awhile. I got to see KiKi tonight, and shes as beautiful as always. Jenessa seems to think I talk to much. Shes alittle grumpy considering she has to get up at 4ish. You know whatever.

So last night I stayed with Tyler and played Apples to Apples with Nicole and Valerie. SO now I'm on my way back to the dorms to go pack up my entire room. What I'm hoping to do is fit everything I need to have at Heather's this summer in my car. The rest will either be in my storage unit I aquired after the divorce and at Tyler's place. We'll ( Read more... )

Noon today I will be done with school for the summer. I'm nervous to go home. I hate moving,AGAIN. SO to up date you in the crazy antics of my life. Rory and I are speaking but you can still taste the bitterness between us. Tyler and I are great, but I'm attempting to do this long distance thing agian, like it didn't hurt enough the first try ( Read more... )