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On Vox: So I've been neglecting all my blogs lately

Jun 06, 2009 14:23

I've been on Twitter and Facebook mostly.

Been depressed as hell lately. I'm sick of trying to interact with people only to piss them off or creep them out. I'm not trying to be a shitty person. Honestly, I have no fucking idea what I'm doing wrong. I really have no idea why people react negatively to me so often and I have no idea how to tell when ( Read more... )

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vacillated June 6 2009, 20:36:04 UTC

I'm pretty much the exact same way. :/ I wish I lived closer... I'd hang out with you, and we'd be awkward together.

therevsoup June 6 2009, 22:28:58 UTC

And we could break glass behind a dumpster!

blackenamel June 6 2009, 20:39:21 UTC

i've been feeling the same way as you for a while now. :\

therevsoup June 6 2009, 22:30:25 UTC

That sucks. It is a shitty way to feel. Good-ass tea is helping, though.

blackenamel June 6 2009, 23:19:42 UTC

i agree. what kind of tea are you drinking?

therevsoup June 6 2009, 23:22:44 UTC

A dark-ass black puerh.

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strangeraeons June 6 2009, 20:48:28 UTC

I've always been either extremely comfortable or extremely awkward, I just wish I knew what times to swing either way. I find that the best way to look at it is: there's gonna be people that get you, get your sense of humor, and appreciate the good things about you, and then conversely there's gonna be those people that just find you obnoxious and will be a bitch to you at each and every turn. (I use the word "bitch" in the most unisex way possible.) Although I find I get along with most dudes just fine, there's definitely a 50/50 when it comes to chicks. In most cases I'm not a very serious person, and some people just don't know what to make of that ( ... )

therevsoup June 6 2009, 22:36:48 UTC

I dunno. It's not so much that people I perceive as assholes are a problem. I really just can't function around a pretty overwhelming majority of people. I've never been able to hold a job because of it. I've never been able to really enter into a meaningful relationship because of it. It's hard to even carry on a conversation with friends. The more I've tried the more I've found I just have no idea how to respond to almost anything said. So in groups, I'm usually quiet or awkwardly going off on weird tangents that just seem to confuse people even though I somehow think they're related at the time.

In this case, I'm sure the failing is totally on my end. And I really have no idea what to make of that.

strangeraeons June 6 2009, 22:43:34 UTC

I wouldn't say there's any failing. When you go through some shit times, it's easy to side with the negative things though.

That said, I think the aspect where I've totally fucked up in the past was concealing my own anxiety with being piss the fuck drunk.

There were at least... three chicks I totally bombed it with because of my drunken antics. Luckily, in retrospect, I guess that just led me to find the right one.

You'll see it through.

therevsoup June 6 2009, 22:53:54 UTC

I hope so. It's sort of something I've been dealing with my whole life. I've had this problem since I was a kid. I was diagnosed ADHD for it and put on pills for a good 12 years, and while they calmed me down a bit, they didn't make me any less awkward or make it any easier for me to cope with other people.

fuck, sorry. happysponge June 6 2009, 21:35:59 UTC

For years i've been trying to figure out why i creep everyone out so much. I still don't know. I briefly wrote about it a few months ago, but you said it better.

You seem totally normal and cool on the internet, though, but that's hardly reassuring. Hope you feel better.

Re: fuck, sorry. therevsoup June 6 2009, 22:38:07 UTC

I think "I'm a fucking creep" is the perfect way of summing it up. I really have no idea why I'm a fucking creep. But for some reason, I am.

greatloyalty June 7 2009, 01:12:15 UTC

That's really unfortunate. No one deserves to be uncomfortable in social situations.

I think if you really think about how you present yourself to strangers you can see why they're not reacting to you how you want. Think about it, they have no motivation to be rude. Maybe if you opened up a bit, they'd reciprocate? Idk, you seem like an interesting person with a lot to say so I don't get why you'd get that vibe from people.

therevsoup June 7 2009, 21:43:06 UTC

Yeah. I think opening up is why most of my friends are just as awkward as I am. Maybe I'm completely imagining that vibe. I'm not sure.

I've actually found people are a lot nicer to me with short hair.