Everything in my goddamn life is always telling me something. I don't know if other people don't see life the way I do, maybe they just ignore it all, or maybe I'm just really fucking stupid for acting the way I do, but dammit... the SIGNS!! Why does the world in and of itself seem like a big fucking pattern all the time? Why is it I can sit around ( Read more... )

Ahh... what is the Therogon Effect you say? Don't look to my screen name. Like I said, January 9, 2004 when I opened this damn thing, I am not Therogon. Not really. I am Therogon's Dragon. Therogon is a representation of me, all the worst parts reflected in something/somebody else. That's what the Therogon effect is about. It's an observation, and ( Read more... )

One person at a time. Not much new to report, except my cousin came down this weekend with her fiancee and I am definitely a bad influence on him. Maybe for reasons unbeknownst to me I am actually a strong male role model. She didn't seem to like it very much when we would laugh about stuff or when he would make a totally callous comment ( Read more... )

I quit smoking ( Read more... )

This morning I stood in the rain and my heart was full and empty at the same time. I was feeling the magic of a moment but not noticing it, not really, why I cared or what I was doing, and when I was cold I wanted to go inside though I didn't, and though it hadn't rained in weeks here I really didn't care I just wanted to feel like I was doing ( Read more... )

Dissertation on the Lives and Dispositions of Alchemical Homonculi ( Read more... )

I just went on a cruise and you didn't... more to follow.

I don't care if it is diet squirt, I'm goddamn thirsty, there's nothing to drink in this house, and I really don't feel like leaving just to buy a drink. So i found out yesterday that I am apparently accepted into my school. Big f*ing surprise. Now I just have to do up all my paperwork and such and such, find a place I might like to live, see how ( Read more... )

Excerpts from things I have written to other people this week ( Read more... )

Almost inspired, but not really... I'm home now, the beard's well underway, and nobody to shave it off for. It's become a symbol of everything I give up in the name of things I believe in and fight for, but when it becomes reward time, I'm hesitant to accept. I don't feel I've earned enough points on my Visa "life sucks so charge it all" card to ( Read more... )