I don't know what to do. I can't trust you. I've given you so many chances, and you keep making me regret it.

You won't stop breaking my heart. I guess I just need to realize that this is who you are. You're a liar. And thats never going to change.

So now I decide what to do about it.

     2 Years ago on the 4th of July, I stood in front of a bon fire, stating that I had made the decision to never fall in love. And a boy, one I had only met a few hours before, looked me in the eyes and told me that that wasn't a choice for me to make. He said that falling in love wasn't something we could decide if we wanted to do. We had no ( Read more... )

I feel like you think I expect so much. But I dont. And its so frustrating right now. Because Im trying not to be selfish but I cant just not be bothered by it. Im in love with you. You drive me crazy sometimes, but I'm so in love that I just dont care. Because it doesnt matter that your work schedule makes me feel like the mall is officially evil ( Read more... )

SO things are going really well right now. I dont think Ive been this relaxed about life in a really really long time ( Read more... )

I'm not sure why, but I feel almost depressed right now. 
I really cant place when or why it happened, but for some reason I cant seem to get myself to smile, atleast not genuinly.
I dont like it.

On a diff note.
I went shopping yesterday.
&&got some extreemly excitingly cute things.
Its pretty damn fantastic.

I cant think of much to write right now.

Maybe ( Read more... )

I dont really know how to explain whats going through my head right now.I  saw him a few days ago. I didnt really know what to expect on the way there. I was kind of nervous. When he got in the car, he looked at me like I was the most beautiful thing in the world. He smiled at me as if things hadnt changed. And went to hug me with the same ( Read more... )

Alright so I haven't updated in like..
a million and 3 years.
Which means ya'll probably dont know about ANYTHING in my life right now!
Lameeee.

But I guess I let you in on a few things..
since I love you guys and everything.
:]

Family: 
Its alright. Ashley got married on Sat! It was amazing. The wedding was in Vegas and it was seriously the most gorgeous ( Read more... )

What the heck am I getting myself into?
I want it though.

Alot.

<33

So Its getting colder. 
&&I love it.
Fall is my favorite.

Survey time!
[Its been awhile kids]

100 Question Survey --

1. Name: Rachael

2. your nick-name: Rach, Rach Anne, Little fox, Angel, Baby Fox, Foxy, Raydogg, ect.

3. Your Birthday: June 19th

4. Place of Birth: schaumburg

5. Zodiac Sign: ( Read more... )

I'm sad tonight ( Read more... )

I'm wearing thin. I dont know if I did the right thing. I do know I did what was best. But that doesnt mean its what I really wanted.  I feel like Im losing control.

I couldnt make things work.

I couldnt change Ashelys leaving.

I cant control the fact that Im going to hate Iowa in about a week.

I cant control Grandmothers being so sick and not ( Read more... )