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Therapist
Because of the huge crisis I had, my family they made me change therapists to one they know and like in new mexico. I don't like, I could relate and got along with anna but it's my own fault I can't see her. instead I'm skype calling someone I can't relate to or agree with and who doesn't understand where I'm coming from (as in it helps it talk ( Read more... ) -
changed antidepressents
some weight gain but I don't know if it's increased appetite due to stress and having someone stay at my house for more than a month now (I'm the type of girl who hates getting her routine jacked and guest for a long period of time includes that) but it definitely causes nausea. I give it a week or two more before I report to my therapist. -
What the flying fuck is wrong with me!!!???
Frist the wallet incident and still I can`t stop practically throwing my money away, literally. When I got the notice that I needed to send money to renew my housing contract, I took that money out to keep from any bills that take out money from my bank account to get any of it. Went to wire it right away but I had trouble figuring out the bank I ( Read more... ) -
still in the twighlight zone
or like someone but a freeze button on life. Still looking for a job, need to do taxes and the fwb is still at my place (what like almost two weeks now?). He seems to be doing a bit better maybe at the end of the weekend he`ll be well enough to head home to miyagi. I don`t mind, the company is nice despite the circumstance but I do feel a bit in ( Read more... ) -
To say this has been an intense weekend
is an understatement. Still can't find a job and some intense stuff went down with a friend, I'm not directly involved but I'm here to pick up the pieces. I'm not giving up on the job, diet stuff is going on the back burner until things calm down, there's too much stuff going on and I'm taking care of someone who needs support the most. It's not a ( Read more... ) -
fuck I'm in such a warp about body issues
I'm hearing everything from "you like curvy bodies right? you're curvy now, you weren't curvy at your lowest weight, you were skinny with no curves" to "you were curvy but the skinny side of curvy" to all sorts of things. I measured myself and also found my old measurements which really made me cry. Sadia is a firm believer in the atkins diet and ( Read more... ) -
somewhat dance related advice prz
because I don`t wanna do something that makes me a huge ass hyprocrit. Im kinda on the more `oriental side` of belly dance, fusion isn`t so much my thing but I do admire their isolation and am considering to take some workshops or lessons just to try and train my body in different ways but I often get a bit butthurt on being culturally appropriate ( Read more... ) -
Bali on Friday!
so soon! but I have a whole list that if time permitting I want to do ( Read more... ) -
wtf why do I attract this or rather why can't people keep their rude comments to themselves
some gyaru bitch at the uni looked right at me when I got of the elevator and said in japanese that I was debu and should use the stairs instead. Too shocked to reply before the doors shut but at least I gave her the death glare. but wtf shit like this gets to me soo bad. I know I can't be everyone's ideal but can people keep their rude thoughts to ( Read more... ) -
low day today
feeling emo, because it's dumb but today was the day Ryo and I parted ways officially and I'm a bit blah. Still kinda ill but worst part is drama at Bellyqueen Japan is still not resolved and I'm seriously worried about the future of my dance studio, with all the students wanted to bitch on facebook and quit without talking about the problem (which ( Read more... )