[multichapter] baby blue part 3 chapter 20
Title: Baby Blue: Part 3: Chapter 20
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1176
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
21st June 2013
“What happened?” Kame asked as he opened the door.
“I need help” was all he could say in response.
“I'll say” Kame replied, pulling him in for a quick hug “Let me look at your hands and then you explain everything ok?”
Ueda just nodded and allowed Kame to lead him over to the sofa where he was pushed down and told to stay. He took the opportunity then to inspect his hands, even with the thick bandages wrapped around them, blood was seeping through. He gave a soft sigh and then Kame was back, a bowl of water and a cloth in one hand and a first aid kit in the other.
He closed his eyes, clenching his teeth together as Kame unwound the bandages and dropped them onto the floor beside the sofa, before taking Ueda's hands and placing them over the bowl. He then took the cloth and began gently wiping at the blood.
Thankfully once the blood was cleared away, his knuckles didn't look quite so bad, and after flexing them a little, it didn't feel like anything was broken, and so he sat patiently as Kame went through the motions of applying antiseptic lotion and wrapping them in fresh bandages. He then cleared everything away and made a cup of tea before settling down on the sofa and finally turning to Ueda.
“So how did this happen?”
“Brick wall...” Ueda answered vaguely and Kame sighed.
“Look, you said you wanted my help right? So you've got to let me in a little.”
Ueda took a deep breath and thought for a few moments before finally turning to Kame. “It's about Taguchi...”
Kame nodded seriously “I figured as much...”
“I've been trying to move on...I really have, but he's always there, and he's...since we broke up, we've done...stuff, and it's confusing, and it hurts, and I just want it to not hurt anymore...” he paused for a breath, looking at Kame imploringly “I want to get over him, but I don't know how...” Kame nodded thoughtfully but when he didn't answer Ueda continued “Kame...you loved Jin right? How did you get over him?”
Kame's face twisted into something of a half-smile but there was something bitter about it. “I didn't.”
Ueda's jaw dropped “But...” he started.
And then Kame's smile turn a little lighter. “I didn't need too. He changed. The person that came back from America wasn't the same one I fell in love with.” he paused to take a sip of his tea “I'm sure that if he hadn't changed, I'd still be in love with him now, and maybe part of me still is in love with the person he was...but that's not who he is now, and I don't feel anything for the person he is now.”
Ueda nodded slowly, trying to understand, and then after briefly thinking over Taguchi's recent behaviour he turned back to Kame. “I think Taguchi has changed too.”
But Kame shook his head “He hasn't...”
Ueda looked at him almost dumb-founded “How can you say that...he's been a real jerk recently...”
“He has” Kame agreed “But not because he is a jerk...I think it's just that he doesn't know how to cope with his feelings. You know Taguchi, he's always been the type to keep smiling and not let things get to him...but this...the way he feels about you...he can't ignore it, and he doesn't know what else to do. He doesn't mean to hurt you, or anyone else, he's just desperately trying to move on...”
“He has moved on...he's with...her” Ueda countered.
“You think he's with her because he's moved on? Tacchan, he's with her because he can't move on...”
Ueda stopped to think for a moment, considering Kame's words, but the memory of Taguchi's cold expression as he'd stood in his apartment between the two of them made him think differently. “An hour ago he was humping me into a wall and now he's shut up in his apartment, showering with her or something, and he couldn't even spare me a few minutes to talk...I think he's dealing with things a lot better than me...”
Kame shook his head, if he had any thoughts on their activities he didn't voice them, instead he just sighed “He's not, he's lost and confused, I tried talking to him that night in Hokkaido, but he just shut down. You're both a mess.”
Ueda pouted “Then what are we supposed to do?”
“You love him right?”
“Of course.” Ueda replied.
“How much? Do you love him more than anything else in the world?”
Ueda's face scrunched a little in confusion “Yeah...”
“Really? More than anything?”
“Yes.”
“Then you should be with him.”
Ueda's jaw dropped again “What?”
“You heard me...things clearly aren't working with the two of you trying to stay away from each other, so why bother? Why don't you just get back together and just be happy?”
He didn't know what to say, a million feelings were running through him, happiness, relief, excitement...confusion, fear. “But what about the group?”
Kame's face lifted up in a smirk “I'm only going to say this once, so listen closely...screw the group.”
“But...but” Ueda stammered “What about the fans, and our careers?”
“Well firstly, sure the fans will be a little disappointed but if they're really our fans then they won't turn on us just because the group isn't around any more...and secondly, I think we have enough of a name for ourselves now that even without the group we'll be able to find work. Also you're forgetting that this stuff is only a concern if you guys get found out...and if that's the case, you and Taguchi would be the ones that would be punished for it. But if he's really more important to you than anything else in world, then that shouldn’t matter right?”
He didn't know what to say, but somehow it didn't seem as easy as Kame was making it sound. “What about Maru and Koki, what will they think?”
“I'm sure they wouldn't begrudge either of you the happiness you deserve...Tacchan, the group is really important to all of us, but you guys are our friends, and that's way more important.”
“Kame...I don't know what to say...”
But Kame just smiled “You don't need to say anything to me...I can only tell you what I think...what you do about it is up to you...”
Ueda pondered it for a moment. “I don't know...things with Taguchi are a little tense right now...I don't know if he'd even want to get back with me...”
“I can't answer that for you, only the two of you can figure out if that's what you want...if it's worth it to you.”
“I'll think about it...thank you though Kame, you really did help me...”
“Good” Kame smiled, “Now go home, I have work this evening.”
With the thought in mind, Ueda left, returning to his apartment alone to consider whether he and Taguchi really could make another go of things, and whether Taguchi would agree.
Chapter 19 | Chapter 21
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Surprise guys :) Slightly early update!! So things are starting to head somewhere now....but what will Uepi do? >_<
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1176
Disclaimer: All people mentioned belong only to themselves...aside from JunDa who clearly belong to each other.
Summary: In the fairy tales they fall in love and live happily ever after...but this isn't a fairy tale. How are two people, madly in love, supposed to stay away from each other?
21st June 2013
“What happened?” Kame asked as he opened the door.
“I need help” was all he could say in response.
“I'll say” Kame replied, pulling him in for a quick hug “Let me look at your hands and then you explain everything ok?”
Ueda just nodded and allowed Kame to lead him over to the sofa where he was pushed down and told to stay. He took the opportunity then to inspect his hands, even with the thick bandages wrapped around them, blood was seeping through. He gave a soft sigh and then Kame was back, a bowl of water and a cloth in one hand and a first aid kit in the other.
He closed his eyes, clenching his teeth together as Kame unwound the bandages and dropped them onto the floor beside the sofa, before taking Ueda's hands and placing them over the bowl. He then took the cloth and began gently wiping at the blood.
Thankfully once the blood was cleared away, his knuckles didn't look quite so bad, and after flexing them a little, it didn't feel like anything was broken, and so he sat patiently as Kame went through the motions of applying antiseptic lotion and wrapping them in fresh bandages. He then cleared everything away and made a cup of tea before settling down on the sofa and finally turning to Ueda.
“So how did this happen?”
“Brick wall...” Ueda answered vaguely and Kame sighed.
“Look, you said you wanted my help right? So you've got to let me in a little.”
Ueda took a deep breath and thought for a few moments before finally turning to Kame. “It's about Taguchi...”
Kame nodded seriously “I figured as much...”
“I've been trying to move on...I really have, but he's always there, and he's...since we broke up, we've done...stuff, and it's confusing, and it hurts, and I just want it to not hurt anymore...” he paused for a breath, looking at Kame imploringly “I want to get over him, but I don't know how...” Kame nodded thoughtfully but when he didn't answer Ueda continued “Kame...you loved Jin right? How did you get over him?”
Kame's face twisted into something of a half-smile but there was something bitter about it. “I didn't.”
Ueda's jaw dropped “But...” he started.
And then Kame's smile turn a little lighter. “I didn't need too. He changed. The person that came back from America wasn't the same one I fell in love with.” he paused to take a sip of his tea “I'm sure that if he hadn't changed, I'd still be in love with him now, and maybe part of me still is in love with the person he was...but that's not who he is now, and I don't feel anything for the person he is now.”
Ueda nodded slowly, trying to understand, and then after briefly thinking over Taguchi's recent behaviour he turned back to Kame. “I think Taguchi has changed too.”
But Kame shook his head “He hasn't...”
Ueda looked at him almost dumb-founded “How can you say that...he's been a real jerk recently...”
“He has” Kame agreed “But not because he is a jerk...I think it's just that he doesn't know how to cope with his feelings. You know Taguchi, he's always been the type to keep smiling and not let things get to him...but this...the way he feels about you...he can't ignore it, and he doesn't know what else to do. He doesn't mean to hurt you, or anyone else, he's just desperately trying to move on...”
“He has moved on...he's with...her” Ueda countered.
“You think he's with her because he's moved on? Tacchan, he's with her because he can't move on...”
Ueda stopped to think for a moment, considering Kame's words, but the memory of Taguchi's cold expression as he'd stood in his apartment between the two of them made him think differently. “An hour ago he was humping me into a wall and now he's shut up in his apartment, showering with her or something, and he couldn't even spare me a few minutes to talk...I think he's dealing with things a lot better than me...”
Kame shook his head, if he had any thoughts on their activities he didn't voice them, instead he just sighed “He's not, he's lost and confused, I tried talking to him that night in Hokkaido, but he just shut down. You're both a mess.”
Ueda pouted “Then what are we supposed to do?”
“You love him right?”
“Of course.” Ueda replied.
“How much? Do you love him more than anything else in the world?”
Ueda's face scrunched a little in confusion “Yeah...”
“Really? More than anything?”
“Yes.”
“Then you should be with him.”
Ueda's jaw dropped again “What?”
“You heard me...things clearly aren't working with the two of you trying to stay away from each other, so why bother? Why don't you just get back together and just be happy?”
He didn't know what to say, a million feelings were running through him, happiness, relief, excitement...confusion, fear. “But what about the group?”
Kame's face lifted up in a smirk “I'm only going to say this once, so listen closely...screw the group.”
“But...but” Ueda stammered “What about the fans, and our careers?”
“Well firstly, sure the fans will be a little disappointed but if they're really our fans then they won't turn on us just because the group isn't around any more...and secondly, I think we have enough of a name for ourselves now that even without the group we'll be able to find work. Also you're forgetting that this stuff is only a concern if you guys get found out...and if that's the case, you and Taguchi would be the ones that would be punished for it. But if he's really more important to you than anything else in world, then that shouldn’t matter right?”
He didn't know what to say, but somehow it didn't seem as easy as Kame was making it sound. “What about Maru and Koki, what will they think?”
“I'm sure they wouldn't begrudge either of you the happiness you deserve...Tacchan, the group is really important to all of us, but you guys are our friends, and that's way more important.”
“Kame...I don't know what to say...”
But Kame just smiled “You don't need to say anything to me...I can only tell you what I think...what you do about it is up to you...”
Ueda pondered it for a moment. “I don't know...things with Taguchi are a little tense right now...I don't know if he'd even want to get back with me...”
“I can't answer that for you, only the two of you can figure out if that's what you want...if it's worth it to you.”
“I'll think about it...thank you though Kame, you really did help me...”
“Good” Kame smiled, “Now go home, I have work this evening.”
With the thought in mind, Ueda left, returning to his apartment alone to consider whether he and Taguchi really could make another go of things, and whether Taguchi would agree.
Chapter 19 | Chapter 21
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Surprise guys :) Slightly early update!! So things are starting to head somewhere now....but what will Uepi do? >_<