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I am 5'4 or shorter.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been ( Read more... )

i'm going nowhere fast. i'm eighteen going on extinct. yes, too much quoting. but it's how i feel. exactly, how i feel. i don't know what i want to do with my life. i don't have a job, i'm not in school. all i do is sleep. i need to get my shit straight. i need someone to fucking save me. i thought i found him, but i was  wrong, sooo wrong. ( Read more... )

i was scared to let go of 2008 but obviously, i had no choice in the matter. so now, i'm looking at  this year, as a chance to work on myself. i am going to better by myself. i've changed so much, and grown so much as a person, by going through so much, now, i'm going to work on fixing myself, not because i have no choice, but because i want too. i ( Read more... )

this year's almost over. it's the one i'm scared to let go of. i'm scared to move on. this year, has made me, and broken me. i've found parts of myself. i've become stronger, and more independent, although, i still don't like doing thing by myself. i've found some extraordinary people, who made their mark on my life. i met a boy that i fell in love ( Read more... )

i want you, and only you. you're the only place i'm home, and the only place i ever will be. this is going to sound weird, i loved him, he is my first love, and forever will be, i believe, you only find true love once, but i don't think he's my soulmate? i don't know exactly that works. i don't necessarily believe you have to be in love with your ( Read more... )

I wish that I knew how to be okay. I wish that I knew how to accept things without trying to figure them out, or pick them apart. Sometimes. I wonder how if I did things differently, how different I would be, how that one thing would affect me, or everyone else around me. I just want things to work out. I want to know. I want to be able to let go. ( Read more... )

I have been listening to taking back sunday almost nonstop. it's intense. eric has stopped talking to me again, but i think it will only be briefly. but whatever. the thing is i miss jackie, a lot. i feel bad. but i couldn't have both of them in my life. and he was trying to let me. but she just wasn't. i love her to death. and i hope she knows ( Read more... )

I have come to terms with the fact that Eric will never be in my life again. Well I can't say never, because I don't know what's going to happen, but basically. My best friend, has proven to me today, that I can't fully trust anyone but myself. I'm never going to be anyone's first choice, so I need to make myself, my own. I'm just not like that ( Read more... )

everytime i feel like i get things figured out, i really don't. i had made up my mind about things a few weeks ago, the other day happens, and i thought things were going to change, then after today, i was like, no i can't do this to myself, i'm done. but. that's a lie. i woke up to him, calling me. and in my head, i just miss my best friend, but i ( Read more... )

yesterday, was the first day i haven't been able to stop thinking or talking about him, in awhile, for me anyway, then this morning, i woke up to him climbing through my bedroom window. he came in, and made me put us as my default, he put me back as his number three. and he kissed me, he hasn't kissed me in two months. and i'm pretty sure i'm going ( Read more... )