i promise to write in you more often.

i miss being myself.

i miss me.

i miss my life.

this silence does nothing but harm ( Read more... )

well, we slumped down pretty low last week. and we exchanged some words. and i let him in on a few details about my health.

we've come back up... but not all the way there. we'll see how it goes.

I think we'll be good for now. I'm hopeful.

He really is driving me crazy. I can't be attached to him by the hip while we are at home, and then always on the phone with him on every break from school or work. I can't handle his "love".

I have so much of my own stress nowadays, I don't think I can't deal with his too.

I need some alone time. I need some time for ME.

I guess every "relationship" will dissolve over time. We are just two souls that sleep next to each other these days. We don't talk really aside from casual small talk. I guess there is nothing left to say after never leaving my side for a solid six months. So we just sit there. Not talking. Even the sex has become a routine venture. There is no ( Read more... )

ugh.. i'm so tired of how much he fucking snoops and keeps tabs on me... like what the fuck. I hate insecure guys like this. I think the last 3 bf's were like this... and you know what? they were like this because they were up to no good themselves. pffft!

Testing this now.

i drove drunk on accident tonight ( Read more... )

it's hard to trust him, though i love him so much. i think it's hard to trust him, because of his paranoia with me, his lack of trust for me. i found out he has hacked a few of my online accounts, and changed things around... and he probably reads through my emails too ( Read more... )