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so i am waisting away in my boyfriends computer chair. I am deteriorating because of my thoughts. Once again i cannot sleep. He continues to tell me i am hurting myself by worring about everything, he's right and i know this, but i cannot help it. I wish there was some way I could just relax and forget it all. all the worries and anticipations of ( Read more... ) -
my thoughts on the censorship of certain websites
how come we can use this LJ to write whatever we want about ourselves. we can embelish, we can state every single detail of our lives...we put personal accounts to what has happened in our lives...it's just as "un-safe" as Myspace.com but how come i am not able to go to myspace during school? how come i can com on to LJ with no need for a PROXY? ( Read more... ) -
school-part 2
i totally forgot what i was saying with that whole school thing....sorry but if it comes back to me i will write it up :-P -
school- introduction
school
you hear that one word and a whole world of thought processes due to your imagination, the media, and prior experiences ignites into your mind. I write about it with only knowing the world of Highschool. I have experienced many spectrums of the highschool relm of thought. I will continue this later in the day when i go home.
~Shirley~ -
FUCK CONFORMITY AND ALL THAT SHIT
What i am doing is wrong. I don't care. Society says it is wrong. where does society get the bases to say certain things are wrong and certain things are right. I won't conform to society's ideals. I refuse to. i say society is wrong! FUCK society! FUCK it's ideals! FUCK everything it stands for! FUCK conformity!and most important FUCK people's ( Read more... ) -
hopeless
I feel hopeless, underestimated, and judged. I don't know how to be...i wanna be me but how do i do that without the influence of the outside world pushing in on me? it's inevitable that i show tendancies of rebellion, of insubordination, anarchy, and non-conformity, for the vast majority of these characterisitcs are the same. I don't agree with ( Read more... ) -
meditation~and how i came to kno it
ugh another sleepless night.i don't think i will go to sleep I'll just saty up until tomorrow night and hit tha matress hard at like 8 or suttin..mabey more like..6pm..lol i will prolly pass out right when i get home from tha fuckin physical. I am supposed to go to kettering today but i said fuck it! i am going to Austrailia for college anyways. My ( Read more... ) -
for all tha shit i ever felt sorry for
FUCK YOU ALL! every1 i ever loved...u broke my heart and my piece of mind....i wanna crawl under a rock and die. the man i wanted to marry eventually is the worst liar in tha world...he looked me straight in the eyes and cried and lied saying he never strayed from me...even when we were not together he still denied it! FUck relationships! i thought ( Read more... ) -
night out with amanda
hey every1 who actually reads this! tonight was a fun night. I went with amanda to see rob at his school Kettering U. First off, we got lost on our way there. lol...that was funny we saw a random couch cushion in tha middle of tha road and picked it up..it smells like weed. any ways thhhhhen we found our way to tha dorms ...which we were both ( Read more... ) -
foggy day with clear skies
when I woke up tha sky was clear. as i went on tha fog stared to form. It drifted and swirled. my mind is entwined with this fog. it is dim. it makes tha day seem grim. I can feel tha moisture and dewish sensation running down my cheeks. in my sight tha fog is embeded. in tha skies there are no clouds. tha skies are still clear. tha fog drapes and ( Read more... )