Well its good to be home, though I certainly had a good time up at the trailer with Erin. She was really sick a few days before we left and i was worried that she wouldnt be able to come up with us. Luckily she got better before we left and hopefully she had a wonderful time, i know i did ( Read more... )

Well today we actually got a decent shower for once, glad to finally see some actual rain these days. Unfortunatly still not the huge thunderstorm i was hoping for, but theres still plenty of time left before summer is over so ill just have to wait and see ( Read more... )

Well here i am writing an entry that Erin asked me to write, abusing her power over me and my personality as a pushover :P. Well lets see, the past couple of days have been good as i have been alone for week since my family is up north at our trailer. Some people wonder why i like to stay home like this. Im not really sure why but i suppose its ( Read more... )

Work sucks ( Read more... )

Summer is almost here. Only 3 more exams and all my projects are done. Loking forward to spending my summer with Erin. Oh and I got my G-1 now, woot. Planning on taking Erin to the trailor sometime this summer. Prom was fun, Erin looked hot :p Jen's party this Friday, Erin's is this Saturday. Oh btw this is an entry my loving gf made for me. How ( Read more... )

Things happen, people change, the way we see one another each day is molded a bit. To see a person from one view and then from another, completely lost to these things and others we call people. The feeling of uncertainty is coming back, starting to fall off the path once again ( Read more... )

And so i walk down this path i have created for myself. Chained to the road slowly walking down. I wish to turn and run as fast as i can. That option is long gone. I feel filled with a strong defiance, almost rage as i descend down the path. I see the fall.

Will i survive that fall?

Only time will tell.

Here I am at home, feeling like complete and utter shit. Id kill to go to school normally like anyone else. The flu fucking sucks. I was killing my self earlier, must of threw up like 9 times. Not to mention a bunch of other problems. I feel like a block of cement, my arms are like lead, aching all over. Most likely dehydrated too. Feeling dizzy ( Read more... )

And here we are, the week after holidays and already crashing into the ground.

I feel so useless in it all

I wish i could help those dear to me so much more, our power is just so weak.

Power, something we all yearn in the end.

Yet it destroys us.

How bitterly Ironic this world is.

Wow. I really do not deserve any of this, this interaction, this feeling of like i actually matter and belong somewhere. I like this, i dont want to let it go. I do not deserve it either as i have been just as low as many can be. Remember, if the smallest acts can make a world of difference ( Read more... )