So I'm all about song lyrics that remind me of what I'm going through, and this is just another one of those posts.  I'd love to be able to write things like this, so that I could really say things to JP and he'd understand.  I just feel like he's dragging all this crap out.  We still talk, and I'll see him in a coupla weeks, and I can't bring a ( Read more... )

So I've been in Meridian for a few weeks now, and it's not as bad as I thought it would be.  I certainly miss my friends though.  I've called a few people with no response, and my feelings are a bit hurt at the moment.  Perhaps they'll return my call and have fabulous excuses and then it will all be ok.  There aren't many people I want to keepin ( Read more... )

So I graduated with my master's, and now I'm staying with my parents for the summer.  I know that this sounds very exciting, but in all actuality, it's not.  I live with mom and dad, and I work with mom and dad.  I only know one person in meridian other than family, and she's ... well... let's just say that my parents don't approve.  She's fun, but ( Read more... )

Either God doesn't want me to graduate this May or He's trying to teach me patience in a BIG way.  I've been working on my final project for that past several weeks.  Doing code, re-doing code and even more of re-doing code.  It's all on my laptop.  So you know what happens today after hours upon hours upon days upon weeks of work?  My laptop dies ( Read more... )

So I went to get my nails done monday, and the guy that was doing my nails gave me a palm reading as well.  It was so hilarious.  So first he tells me that I'm a dominant female.  "Bossy! Bossy!" he said.  I cracked up, because we all know it's very true.  So then he starts telling me that my parents split up when I was young and then I got a new ( Read more... )

I hate the end of the semester.  It's so freakin' busy.  I have to finish this final project, which I'm starting to hate very much. All the theory and hand work was really cool, and I really enjoyed it.  Now the rest of it's going to be coding, which sucks.  I don't want to code this crap.  It's ridiculous.  I didn't want to do a numerical project ( Read more... )

I PASSED MY CORE EXAMS!!!

I haven't really posted in a while.  My life hasn't really been that eventful ( Read more... )

How do I allow it to bother me
how do I continue to allow it to affect me
Why can't I just let it lie
why won't I just leave it alone
Like picking at a scab, or trying to turn a twisted ankle
Just leave it be

Why do continue to feel foolish?
why do I continue to allow myself to be hurt?
why can't I push myself forward?
why can't I trust someone again?
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I heard back from NC State and got accepted to their doctoral program.  They've offered me a TA which is great.  I'm going to visit in March, but as of now, that's most likely where I'll be as of March.  Raleigh, NC, here I come!

In other news, core exams are in 8 days.  I am so nervous.  I don't know that I've ever studied for a test this much.

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