Comments | thestoryends___: truth and time

thestoryends___

truth and time

May 12, 2008 20:17

So much and yet so little has changed since i last posted, since last year. Ive grown and ive remained the same girl that sat in front of this computer screen, wishing for answers to pour from the keyboard. Im stronger now then I used to be. Loose some friends, make some new friends everything is changing. its sad when people you know become ( Read more... )

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sarahniicole May 13 2008, 10:11:10 UTC

The first thing I thought about when I read this, was the fact that the only person that will make your sobriety happen, is YOU. Going to meetings and spending time with people that are a good influence on you is helpful, but ultimately, at the end of the day, you need to count on yourself to know that you want what is absolutely positively the best for you. You need to tell yourself that every single day. Drowning yourself in anything will never solve whatever is the matter with your life. Take on what is happening with a strong mind, and know that regardless of how difficult things get, you will overcome them; without the help of any substance. I believe in you.

thestoryends___ May 13 2008, 22:05:21 UTC

of course. ive just been such a downer because i realized i dont have anyone to talk to about anything. its just crazy. my boyfriend josh was the one who helped me to become sober. he is a good influence and thats about it. but i cant fully rely on him to be my support i need someone else you know. its just sad i am trying to be so strong for myself and its hard. i believe in myself when i relapsed last month it just really made me realize how much i hate drinking and how i really didnt need to do that because i could have had just as much fun without it. i love you sarah <3

tammy_smith May 15 2008, 03:54:23 UTC

So....I clicked on ur profile, after seeing a comment you left on Trisha's myspace. Just thought of you.

I'm happy for you Carissa.
And you are gonna do great..."relapse is part of recover." I'm sure you've already heard it being in the rooms.
Keep it up.

thestoryends___ May 25 2008, 08:34:51 UTC

thank you. that means alot. its so hard... im trying with everything i have but i just keep romancing everything haha how are you doing
girl?

tammy_smith May 28 2008, 16:18:37 UTC

SO happy for you! :)

I'm doing good...same place as you with trying to stay AWAYYYY from the shit. Not gonna lie though, I'm not doing the program how I was for the past months...just staying away from all drugs not the alcohol right now. I know it's a drug, but yeahhh I'm not ready for that yet.

So how many days you got baybeh?

thestoryends___ May 29 2008, 06:35:59 UTC

well before i relasped i was like a few days shy of 2 months but as of the moment im over a month sober now. haha my sober day is 4-20 it was so hard to stay sober that day since i was partying all the days before it so why not one more haha. but yeah im away from everything. i cant do anything because i cant handle my shit theres no stopping point for me. its bad and i can finally admit it haha. im really happy for you too. from where weve been weve come along way. and your doing great everything is at your own pace. keep it up! <3