They had lunch together a couple of months after the breakup. It went really well: they talked about work, mutual friends. For the most part, it was friendly, companionable, with only a couple of awkward moments where one or the other wasnt sure if the conversation had started to drift toward old roles, habitual intimacies which were no longer ( Read more... )

i cant stop crying...

Lipstick is still a little funny to me. It always reminds me of sitting in the passenger seat of my grand mother's nissan as a little girl. Her reapplying at a red light, reaching over to apply just a tiny bit of color onto my pouting lip. In a way lipstick will always be my go to pick-me up, alongside my sexy underthings and favorite perfume. The ( Read more... )

Right now i am kind of lost but at the same time i am not. I think i am lost emotionally. I start school for nursing March 2nd. its going to be the hardest year of my life. I find myself asking if this is what i really want to do?...i dunno? Josh and i arent together anymore but are still close. We both agreed we need to focus on our lives and not ( Read more... )

i had the best night of my life last night ( Read more... )

Youre in my thoughts, more now then ever. I want you now more than I ever have. Youve stood in front of me multiple times, and i never had the strength to tell you how i really feel. Ive been under-appreciated, torn, used, dismissed, and denied...but with you none of those seem to come alive. Its foolish, i know, but its the truth. I am far from ( Read more... )

its weird ive been on a country kick. i hated it before but i love it now. it makes me happy and puts me in a good mood, haha the songs are just so cute. anyways so the past weekend has been pretty exciting... but it was by far one of the best :] acctually alot of my weekends have been so awsome. camping, spearfishing, alexs, road trip... im just ( Read more... )

i feel like ive been clashing with everybody this week. family, friends, josh. i bet i have somehow pissed my dog off, i just want to eat some ice cream and in between gooey spoonfuls cry while reading and writing. i dunno why but im just in this downer mood that i cant seem to shake. whatever this too shall pass. im trying not to be such a ( Read more... )

well so lately things have been really up in ther air for me. things between josh and i are not as good as it used to be. i think its because we are comfortable with eachother now... but i know its more of me than it is him. im weird i dunno what i want. i really like him but at the same time i dont want to be in a relationship. i just got out of ( Read more... )

So much and yet so little has changed since i last posted, since last year. Ive grown and ive remained the same girl that sat in front of this computer screen, wishing for answers to pour from the keyboard. Im stronger now then I used to be. Loose some friends, make some new friends everything is changing. its sad when people you know become ( Read more... )