"My life is all i have.
And I done made it through struggle, dont judge me
What you say now wont budge me
Cause where I come from, so often
People you grew up with layin in the coffin
But I done made it through the pain and strife
It’s my time now, my world, my life."

Everything is starting to work itself out. i have a smile on my face constantly ( Read more... )

wow. i have not been on here forever. and since then a whirlwind of things has happened. as of the moment i have been 21 days sober. dont get me wrong i want to use so badly but i just take a look at it and think you know its never good enough i always want more and what good is it even doing? it only will last for a certain amount of time and then ( Read more... )

so my plans in my head are never coming out in life as i want. peachbeach was a failure. ya they were doing illegal activities and i was so close to reporting them when they refused to pay me. so now i work a joanns and i like it but i cant handle getting paid 7.50 an hr. i need to manage my money but its really is hard to save any money for TX ( Read more... )

So this past weekish has been very fun. we all went to jeffs party. sooooo fun :] we played beer pong and saw tons of friends we havent seen in so long. i have tons of pictures. my moms present was a success. she cried haha. but i am slightly irate at the fact peachbeach is holding a grudge that danielle and i quit. they wont give us our last ( Read more... )

So after two days of camping, a ton of partying, i am eroding away. haha weve had so much fun though. Tomorrow is my moms birthday and i got her one of those clear teapots where you put the green tea blooming flower in. It also came with 10 different flavors. Shes gonna flip. Were Dutch so shes a teafreak. haha awww. Yup, tea and chocolate would ( Read more... )

Tonight belonged to 40's, Dave Chappell, driving stick (hahaha), and my first game of poker ever and let me tell ya, i kicked ass! The game came down to Carlos and i, and i swear i thought i was gonna take that mans money. haha. My calender for the next couple days are pretty popping. Tomorrow jon and i are camping at Doheny beach with his sister ( Read more... )

Todays adventure was Tortilla flats with my brother and matt. :] I may not be 21 but i guess i passed and i sure as hell milked it for all that its worth and made some friends. i managed to get drinks from all the ladies. in their words im "de-lish" hahaha...im still buzzed, oh the fun of my life.


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I open my life, my heart, my soul to those who want to gaze. All i have to say for today is you can find beauty in anything but we are all so oblivious as to even look.


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I was made supervisor and given a .50 raise. but i find it money isnt worth being miserable. i have never been so stressed out in my entire life...i managed to have an anxiety attacked at subway. i had to leave the table and go to the bathroom to breakdown in my own company. im trying so hard to please everyone, my parents, my bosses, my boyfriend ( Read more... )

my havasu trip was really funn. i can proudly say i jumped off of a 50 foot cliff despite the fact i landed on my ass...yeah owww. haha it was 121 during the day and 108 at night. i have never been in such heat, but surprisingly i did not get sunburned, so thats a plus. i attempted to knee board haha but i was unsuccessful. we went up to 50 mph ( Read more... )