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So many emo days and nights but today happiness
I think I'm a bit manic but this is my life lately something that allows me to be manic because searching for work and all these things are making me more and more of a night person. It is not that I don't enjoy the day at all that's not me I like taking pictures and walking on the beach enjoying the warmth. That is not me I'm just a driven person ( Read more... ) -
Blogs the source of angst
So I haven't written in this in forever. This is sorta a source of angst for me I'm not sure why but the act of writing for me has caused this sort of angst. Maybe because it is the last source of entertainment nothing useful or insightful though it is something that could be in the long term if you do something well useful instead of my usual ( Read more... ) -
Being sick
Being sick for a long time makes you think about things. Mostly you think about death and how it may effect you or your family. Thinking about death makes you think about other people's deaths and how you have lived your life. My life can be said to be interesting but will anyone write something about me when i'm dead other then a eulogy I think ( Read more... ) -
My Non Verbal Life
This is a weird one I'm sure. The way that I live is mostly a non verbal way. It's not like I can't interact with people verbally but the way that I like to interact mostly is non verbal. I hear the things in my mind and I hear the insane rantings that go on but it never is verbalized. That saying this is the way that I speak it is a place where I ( Read more... ) -
Irate and knowing what to do.
The thing that I'm talking about now is my brother, who is endlessly selfish sometimes, to the point of stupidity ( Read more... ) -
Wierd Dream # 3?
Ok So here was my wierd dream and itmade me feel well really warm ( Read more... ) -
writing writing writing
I find that writing for me can never ever be done as an acual written thing. I have too many learning disablities to be able to do it stabaly. I know that if I write with my eyes closed I'm more likely to write someting better becaus eI can "see" it. I write this because I cannot sleep I am freezing cold and I have nothing to do but to write. I ( Read more... ) -
Was I the bad kid?
The way I grew up is unlike anyone else grew up. I say that as a cliche because I can because I am an identical twin. Now just take that as a fact, the reason I say this is because people will challenge me and in fact call me a liar in my face because they think I'm lying. I assure you I am and if you want the evidence it is there for the taking if ( Read more... ) -
Middle of the night rant
I know I should be asleep and I know that there is no one to talk to or chat with online. I am a night owl always will be. -
The Stupid Disco of my Heart
The stupid disco of my heart ( Read more... )