It's been 5 years since I've written on these pages. So much time to regret everything that I've done. With time comes thoughts of not being invincible anymore. With that also comes thoughts of how much it hurts to lose the things once thought to be replaceable. Yet, friends do not fall out of the sky. The world turns and the bridges still burn. I ( Read more... )

The last two months have been dark. June started out with a chaotic force that culminated into a raging whirwind. This stormed through my life without a care to whats it was touching. Every aspect of me was thrown askew, down to my own perceptions of myself and those around me. I was uprooted, frayed, bashed in by old comforts and securities. My ( Read more... )

I remember standing there. I wanted to rip open that pale blue tile. I wanted to shred my hands on the shards, embed them deep into the flesh. I wanted to feel the plaster dust rain over my head while I sang the song of mourning. It hurt. Oh did it hurt. Worse than a thousand knives. Cold dark iron was pushing through my heart, and climbing through ( Read more... )

I got to see the eclipse the other night. It was amazing. I want to start off this little journal escapade with something positive and interesting. The next entry will not be so. And I don't know about the others. Ha. In any case the moon was very orange the next night. It was so so big too. So big it was unreal. I felt a lot of energy looking at ( Read more... )