I want to do my own thing without people thnking stupid shit....I care about him but I can't sit here and wait forever. I have to keep having fun and maybe if it is meant to be we will be together. Who knows....

My heart aches in every sense of the word. It isn't just a boy this time, it goes deeper than that. I feel like I'm really about to lose some of the most important people in my life and there is nothing I can do about it. I don't get to spend time with them and right now I'm here in my room. I can't even bring myself to go to class. I dont ( Read more... )

Gone home...I so much to write about...Mmm....Hehe....

So with some studying done...I'm going to go out and enjoy a night with my girlies...O wait I get to do that tomorrow too. Sex Toy Party...Mmmm....Excited...I've never used any of these things or touched them so this should be fun. I just want to go out and have a care free night with my friends. I deserve it after the week i've had and well I ( Read more... )

So today has just been an over all bad day....It sucks...My mind is so consumed with shit that it sux. I hate it. I want to be happy. I don't want to worry about the drama or hurt feelings. :/ Just a bad day....So much has gone wrong. BLAH!!!

So why do people feel the need to fucking copy and paste my journal?? Do you have nothing better to do with your life? I feel like I'm the fucking drama bubble....What is everyone's fucking issue?? I did nothing wrong....ERGG....

I feel like I'm on a emotional rollercoaster and someone else is controlling it. I can't make it stop the ride just seems to become more intense as the hours pass. I want off, I no longer what to feel hurt, upset, or any sort of a saddening feeling. It is not all a boy or boys. There is more too it. I just don't know what has overcome me. It ( Read more... )

So apparently I'm fired for not updating my journal enough or with any sorts of details so umm...Sorry....Will do soon... :)

so drunk...I'm fired...mark hates me...Jim is yelling at me....I'm a sad drunk...Okay not can't feel anything...WOHOO!!!

No more tongue ring for me...I took it. I was getting so tired of it anyways and I forgot to take it out at work yesterday...Oops...So it is now gone!!