that chiropractor called me yesterday. we're supposed to go out next weekend. hmm...

yesterday, i went to yoga. i told my instructor kim about how i felt i wasn't making any progress with my meditation. she reassured me that it just takes patience and the use of a mantra. she gave me an old sanskrit saying, meaning 'i am a spiritual being?' or something to that effect. as instructed, i repeated the mantra all throughout my postures ( Read more... )

i have come to the conclusion that my self.esteem has suffered greatly due to the relationship that i have maintained with david. i have so accustomed myself to putting his [everything] above me, and in the process he has lost sight of my value. i just got finished telling him that i felt that his intelligence and circumstance had enabled him to ( Read more... )

words are meaningless and actions are a joke. you fuck me and then tell me it was all a mistake ( Read more... )

the time of no reply.

note to self: i need to start meditating in the morning. and finish my papers ( Read more... )

ran into ryan today at borders. spotted me reading self-help books. how silly.

he was surprizingly helpful though. he helped me put things into perspective. i think i shall follow his advice.

wow.

i never thought i would hear myself say that.

i got v. drunk again last night. its better than sitting at home.

he said he missed me. he said that he thought about calling me a lot. in a year and a half of knowing him he has never said that to me ( Read more... )

david thinks it would be a good idea if we have lunch and talk. for whom i wonder? to make him feel better?