I havent posted for a very long time. Alot has happened. Most of it in the last two weeks. I guess I just dont really have the motivation to write much, or really do much of anything. It really sucks going through what im going through without a support network of friends, without a car, bleh. She is lucky she has both, she can get out, she has ( Read more... )

Ill trying and keep this as simple and short as possible. That may be hard to do, because their is a few months lacking on here. I will try and also keep things as much to relavent to what has happened in my life as possible and leave out the names of others has they might know who they are, but im not trying to make a post in a negative vain like ( Read more... )

So I was down in clackamas pulling my medical records and whatnot from Kaiser down there for various school appeals (trying to get that cash dollar to support my massive drug addictions that is just getting to be too expensive, haha, ya, right, but I do have some bills to pay and a company to through a few more thousand at and prepay for the office ( Read more... )

Ok folks, I really really really hate to have to resort to this, but i guess this just goes to show my level of committment to the company im getting started here, Gambol Chemicals, started by Me, Reuben, and Bill back in April. It is not my sole responsibly to take care of all financial cost and operations like I have taken upon my self as well as ( Read more... )

So I have come to a conclusion after much thought, and that is I am the easiest to blame. Whenever something happened and the need is felt to place fault on someone, their is some invisible law of the universe the automaticaly places great weight on me as the person of fault, the one to blame. If someone in my circle of friends does something, I ( Read more... )

After alot of thought and sitting aroundn in tears and just complete emotional distress, as this is turning out to not just be the worse holiday season of my life, its turning out to be one of the hardest times period. Since my birthday I have been able to count the number of people that hang out with me and probably still consider me a friend on ( Read more... )

You could pretty much read my October 8th post, two post ago realy, to understand how im feeling right now. For the exact same thing happened, from the exact same person, for the exact same reasons, only this time ive been asked to stay away from him (which considering we have hung out like 3 times probably at most in the last 3 months is pretty ( Read more... )

Ok people, so as most of you know, im really really broke. Largely in part because of people screwing me, or otherwise not paying me back, and the large amount of money ive invested in me and reubens business we are trying to get going, thrown 13 grand at it in the last 5 months, 7-8 grand of it mine (well loans that were supposed to pay for my ( Read more... )

This week was lame and very hurtful on multiple fronts, another post later tonight probably with details. Tonight is a bust, it was supposed to be allisons Birthday party, but that didnt work out for various reasons. All she wanted was a party, and thats what I tried very veyr hard to get her. It was only like 4-5 people too, nothing big. On ( Read more... )

Arggg, so stupid fricking hollywood video took 54 dollars out of my account for the movies that bill and mara didnt return, gay. One I didnt know was rented till after the fact and I guess just lost, and cant be found for god knows why. The other I rented, but when I went to return it the day after I rented it the dvd wasnt in it because I guess ( Read more... )