dear chris ( Read more... )

I want to be practical. I really do. Because it makes everything easier ( Read more... )

I am wrapped in blankets and sheets, under and on top of pillows, and incredibly comfortable. I start to think about the dream I was having and I am still asleep enough to forget my body exists ( Read more... )

Tonight I read a theory that was (finally) a realization of what I first thought theory to be. In subsequent academic study of theory, I determined my initial thought of theory to be invalid and idyllic ( Read more... )

Last week: schoolwork, going to class, therapy, illness, work, and this much fun ( Read more... )

I want to disappear into a drug-induced haze, emerge aware and driven, and knowing where to start looking for these people that find my physically and mentally attractive, and know how to express that to me while I wish I could look or think like them ( Read more... )

is ready for a positive spin.

needs to know where to start.

can't believe

has to start something else.

wants to grow.

Yes, I've taken steps to try to ensure a little more productivity this semester. I've gotten mostly required classes at mostly reasonable hours, and a job that pays mostly well ( Read more... )

So oh my the wheels are a-turnin ( Read more... )

It seems I'm getting back on the path I swerved off of back in 05, meaning a return to emotional stability and returning (somewhat) to my long former academic ways, although I'm still really resistant to higher "education". I mean , shit, I'm even much more responsible with the drugs than I was a year ago ( Read more... )