Haven't had any reason to employ LiveJournal since December of'07 ... not entirely sure I do as of now, either. I always end up saying negative things, either about myself or my surroundings, when I post here. Which used to make me feel somewhat guilty until I re-realized that venting is kinda the point of such venues ( Read more... )

I'm 23. So why am I 16 ( Read more... )

I'm such a juvenile when it comes to being told what to do. Example: my savings and checking accounts. My savings is essentially my back-up checking account, which tends to go broke because I don't keep track of it much and as aq result get hit with overdraft charges. This is all because it's my passive-aggressive way of saying,"see, this is what ( Read more... )

Come to realize I set 5 plans for/during this summer:
1. Study up on German for class in the fall. Class canceled.
2. Go back to work at IHOP Failed drug screen.
3. Get job that doesn't piss test. Fired.
4. Visit James and Astrid in Sarasota. Can't afford it.
5. Don't worry, because I have a job to go back to. Job closed, new management ( Read more... )

Summer is stupid. They call it a break but it's been the more stressful time of year for me ever since I was 17. In conclusion, I am still out of work and smoking pot ( Read more... )

I'm failin miserably at being a hustler. Whats worse is how hard I'm trying to be better. Like actual hard effort is being put into being a positive person with goals and amibitions...but I can't stop lettign myself get shot down. And I know it's me, I know I'm the ultimate decision maker when it comes to communication and interaction. But this ( Read more... )

why am I so concerned with disappointing someone whose opinion I used to spit on?
Dad, the worst mistake you ever made was managing to get me to respect you.

How do I balance what's good for me now with what's good for me in the long term, when they're two different things?

Or rather my latest theory ( Read more... )

Universal Justice ( Read more... )

So ( Read more... )