1. i don't know why sometimes i can't bring myself to speak. it's almost as if my mouth is a fireplace, and as soon as the chimney starts smoking, i flip the damper on and poison everyone in the house. this is the only illustration i can use to try and explain what it feels like ( Read more... )

1. thursday i will wrap myself around you like a climbing ivy plant.
2. sometimes, without you, my body forgets itself. it has been worried.
3. you can read it on my face like a newspaper if you look close enough.
4. today i got an espresso machine and a teapot.
5. i have been playing 45's all afternoon.

in slightly less words he said
"you are nothing but a fuck up, celynna"

across the table, i hear you praying. i'm thinking ihateyou but that you were my friend. i finish reading bukowski, tip the waitress, and leave.

sometimes i swear i'm untouchable.

i resent myself when, narrowing my eyes
is a cause with no effect.

i resent myself when, my spine faces you
and i can't feel your eyes burn holes through it.

three weeks and accumulation of all nervous habits,
biting my lips, touching my earlobe,
the electricity i create on my thighs

i won't apologize
while sticking my fingers
between the rungs of my ribcage
like a step ladder

it sure makes me happy when
i buy used books
and find notes in the margins

because of you
i went to bed sad
and woke up angry.