I’m getting old and boy do I know it. I thought I’d be more by the time I was 23 but more or less this is me. Whelps I found a new place and only $300 a month. I like the people there. I think this is what you might consider the up swing to the down swing of the pendulum I’ve been stressing about. Everything is swell. Went shopping today for my ( Read more... )

Been busy with school or too drunk to compose a sentence. Yeah I failed two of my classes but I passed the other two. I would like to look at the glass as being half-full. I am taking five classes next semester. I can hardly pass two but since I am retaking some of the same classes, I think I will manage. That is three classes in the day and two at ( Read more... )

Today in class, we had the opportunity to ask three people, "Is there something you've withheld from me?" I could not bare the nerves to say anything at first. I wanted to get some feedback about myself, but I remained taciturn. I have a hard time taking constructive criticism constructively because I take everything to heart. Even when I am honked ( Read more... )

Been busy. Been studying. been getting drunk. last week of school. I am scared. A fear of the future soaked me to the bones while I showered the other day. I must be stupid because I keep ditching school to stay home and play guitar. I cannot fail any more classes if I want to transfer in 2007. I feel so old and pathetic. However, I still feel ( Read more... )

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I wanna walk up the side of the mountain / I wanna walk down the other side of the mountain / I wanna swim in the river and lie in the sun / I wanna try to be nice to everyone ~grandaddy ( Read more... )

reading books by computer screens. i pour more wine so i can feel. listening to music i wish i wrote. went to an art gallery tonight and got inspired. i like the images i saw. i wonder if they have the same feelings i do about creating. "get behind the wheel, stay in front of the storm" i love those lyrics. i've got a thing for red heads but i'm ( Read more... )

well this is my secret journal. my more personal stuff. i am who i am on the water level, but below that, things get muddy, unclear, distorted. even to myself. i've been reading some psychology self-realization books. it talks about being a self actualization person. someone who is aware of themselves and see reality for what it is. this all ties ( Read more... )