Hmm... I don't really have anything that I want to update. I'm just really bored. I feel fat today hah. I have to go turn in my final portfolio for English... And I should write my paper for Philosophy. But I'll probably put it off til tomorrow morning. It's not due til Wednesday anyway... Of course, I'm working all day on Wednesday so I can' ( Read more... )

So... I don't know. This is rough. I hate this part. When you're just... waiting for time to pass, so it gets easier. And I try so so so hard to look totally unaffected when I see his friends or I talk to him on the phone. And then I break down the first chance I get. I dunno. This all just seems so stupid. I talked to him today. I woke up ( Read more... )

Ugh. So I decided I'd finally update with the recent events ( Read more... )

Whew. Okay. I started my new job today. I'm so lost haha. I forgot how much it sucked to have to start over and learn new things. I probably wont see my boyfriend til Friday and that kinda makes me sad... Even though I usually don't see him Mon-Thurs, I usually at least hope I will. But I knew I wouldn't see him last night or tonight, ( Read more... )

So.... life is nooot going well as of today ( Read more... )

I would have gone to class today. It wasn't a good one to miss. But I set my alarm for 9pm. So I didn't do much all day. Actually I slept til 1pm. Took a shower. Went into town and ran some errands. Came home and took 6 pages of notes. Went to work to drop a cd off for Tara. Came home and took 10 more pages of notes. Watched TV. And now ( Read more... )

Every day is closer and closer to my impending failure. And I'm just sitting here... accepting it. Why can't I just get the ambition to do something about it? It's like every day I care less and less about it. But every day it bothers me like crazy. Everything bothers me like crazy. God damn, I just want a good day. A real good day. I keep ( Read more... )

So as usual, I sit here and get my hopes up for something probably isn't going to happen. I hate myself. Really.

The last couple of days have really not been working out for me at all. I can't drop my history class, therefore I need to try to do semi-well in this class. I don't see that happening but whatever eh? I can't get a new job, which is really really something I NEED to do. At least my grandpa's house finally sold. That's some good news. So maybe ( Read more... )

I really hope Ryan comes over tonight. I'm having this super stressful day. I'm confused and stressed and guilty and annoyed and ahhh! I wish this weekend was a different one.