Everything is weighing down on me at this moment. term papers, tests, paintings, and this isn't even anything . i need to get off this fucking island...luckily i will be home next wednesday. from september 2nd to november 23rd i have been here. i just need a little comfort for 5 days and thankfully this small break fills that void. i have been ( Read more... )

I am about to divulge in some chinese food. overall, i had a good weekend. helped dave shoot his zombie movie in which i was turned into a zombie by having "chocolate syrup" spit into my mouth. oh the things i do for friendship. friday was a blur and led to me being hung over the day we shot the movie. i worked rsr today and i'm glad certain people ( Read more... )

I viewed "Jarhead" this evening with 11 other people and having heard that half of the critics detested the film, i didn't know what to expect from sam mendes. the movie was the strangest film, definitely a psychological study on the effects of war and the corresponding expectations. most of my friends didn't care for it, and while torn right after ( Read more... )

Great weekend in CT. need i say more?

I just took my eastern thought midterm. i studied about 3 hours for it yesterday and this morning. needless to say, i don't know how well i did. i forgot to mention something on the essay that i probably should have. i really know the content but i don't know how this test proves that. i am such a stressball when it comes to things like this. it's ( Read more... )

I saw the rapture last night at the bowery ballroom with jonathan and brittawnee. it was absolutely phenomenal. their new songs are amazing. we met luke jenner. cut copy was amazing. it was just a really fun, energetic show. i needed that. we didn't get home until 4 am this morning as to the doors didn't open last night until 9 and we had to wait ( Read more... )

I don't feel like studying. 2 tests on a friday blows, as well as 5 hours worth of class. oh well, i did it to myself. i don't like when people have pre-established opinions about me and when i defy them people are so surprised. that sounds lame, i know, but i feel that people label me as reserved or too shy, etc, etc. why do i care what others ( Read more... )

Okay so this week has been kind of hectic. i feel like i have no experience with film but i know it is what i want to do. this next year has to be a change of pace for me. to think about my future is scary, moreso than it should be. oh yeah, and buddhism makes a lot more sense than christianity. end of discussion.

It has been so ugly up here lately. the rain is too much...definitely brings everyones moods down. i talked to my mother yesterday and i feel like she is so isolated and has no one to talk to about anything. i almost feel guilty being here, though she wants me to not have to suffer like she does 10 hours a day working a job she completely detests. ( Read more... )

I can't let you be, cause your beauty won't allow me ( Read more... )