I hate this holiday.

So I guess that even though JAnuary is almost over, its time for a year-end review. I haven't seen my Mom in a month, I think I've seen my sister maybe once since New Years, and I miss my family. Which sucks, since my family has disbanded and become what I will now refer to as a "holiday family". A family thats only together on holidays... pretty ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in awhile, but I do my best not to update whilst in a depressed state... which for the first time in forever, I can honestly say I am not. Well, at least not REALLY depressed. 'Cause as I was walking to my computer, I saw my mom start crying as Amber and dad ferry boxes to their new apartment. Damn. And I almost cried while I ( Read more... )

So, its been a while, but a life-time of shit seemed to happen in a week and its after-effects are still fuckin' with the cosmic balance of my family. I honestly don't even know how to look at my mom anymore... I avoid eye contact and have to fake a smile when we actually do lock eyes. My Dads in a world o' hurt, and my sister spends all her time ( Read more... )

My parents marriage is the ONLY thing in this world that makes me believe that marriages and relationships in general can work... but now, they're thinking about getting a divorce.

Once again, I've lost the evergoing battle between me and myself. I always seem to think that I'm the one in charge of my emotions, and that I don't need a pill to keep them in check... unfortunately, like all the times before that I've tried to ween myself off the damn things, I have a breakdown, and damn-near take my own life. Yes, thats right. ( Read more... )

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Ugh. I'm disgusted with my sister. I always knew she was flirty, but I just found out she is a "playa". Yeah, I playa hate. I think its wrong to knowingly let a person think that they're your boyfriend/girlfriend, and to treat them accordingly, but the second you're not with them, continue the single life. Its not fair, and its mean. She sucks, ( Read more... )