Don't think, dumb is strength, never shot at a living thing....

pearl jam

Many things have happened since my last entry and all seem to be in the negative direction. I think that for a while, I need to stay chemical free to keep my mind together and try to put things back together. The drugs can stay gone, nothing but bad things come from the drugs. I feel real bad for Angella. So much so that my immediate reaction is ( Read more... )

Hey babe I am going to bed, sorry about the no call but i am too tired and i want to get some sleep. I get off work at twelve so I will give you a call then. ok. If you are off cashing your check and are in the neighborhood...

The beautiful and awesome power of the human mind can do wonders greater than could ever have been expected. I get it now. It's not what happens to me per se, it is how it affects my mind. And my emotions are linked to my mind, and the leg bone is connected to the hip bone...

Here we may reign secure; and in my choice
To reign is worth ambition, though in hell:
Better to reign in hell than serve in heaven.
Paradise Lost. Book i. Line 261.

A mind not to be chang’d by place or time.
The mind is its own place, and in itself
Can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven. 2
Paradise Lost. Book i. Line 253.

instant karma is going to get you... Man I am freezing. There must be like no heat on whatsoever. It may be like ten degrees warmer in the house than outside the house. I am feeling tired and jaded. I need to get a second job. I always want more..!!!! There are going to be things that I am not too thrilled about and there are going to be the things ( Read more... )

its 11:50 and I am drunk. Mark wanted to hang out for a while so we went to the bar and drank and watched football. I can't help thinking about my special someone(you know who you are--Angella). But I was so tired tonight for various reasones... Tomorrow i have many things to do, i get off work at twelve and still haven't decided if i will go right ( Read more... )

What you believe in, ends up believing in you ( Read more... )

Today I got out of bed and took care of everything that needed to be done. I somehow overcame any anxiety and worry and just did it even though i didnt know what to do. I just kept making phone calls and finally made the appointments and got it all wrapped up. My license should be taken care of next thursday. It could have been this week except ( Read more... )