Wow, things are really good lately. I am excited to start school even though it is going to be long and hard but it will get me closer to my dream everyday. I heard that I might be able to transfer to Japan in a year or two and I am so going to do it. A good friend of mine is going to come too if we can do it. I am so excited!!! Oh yes ( Read more... )

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I woke up this morning to find that my throat was in extreme pain. This is not an ordinary sore throat, oh no, it only hurts on one side and it feels like someone just ripped my tonsils out, but they are still there and are huge and red and in pain. It is only on my left side and the pain starts in my ear cavity and travels down to my vocal cords. ( Read more... )

I am trying to thread the elastic through the neck hole of a blouse that is part of my sister's costume but it is being a jackass because of the stupid safety pin getting caught on shit and THEN!! it broke through the elastic and now I have both the elastic and a safety pin stuck in this tube of cloth that I will NOT unthread. I refuse. I am really ( Read more... )

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I haven't posted in soooo long! NYC is very fun, but I can't wait to go home tomorrow~ ^_^ I've had a lot of changes while I was here and made a lot of great friends whom I will miss sooo much!! I made a new best friend, well not exceeding Channy and Krista, but yeah. I got along with her so well and although she is two years younger than me, she ( Read more... )

I am leaving for New York in... three daysish. On Friday. Everyone keeps asking me whether I am excited or nervous or both and I honestly say that I really don't care. I am leaving, so what, I should get away from here anyways. Maybe I can start building myself again, but it really seems pointless. Anders told me yesterday that I was like a ( Read more... )

As I am researching MS for my paper... I've realized that I have most of the symptoms. Seriously. My dad has always joked about me having it since he does and just today I was telling him that I have a lot of the symptoms that I have been researching about. He got a little quiet and said that maybe I should go see a neurologist. I'm still not sure ( Read more... )

All of my dreams have been filled with my love every night. That makes it a million times harder to forget about him. I dream about being with him, holding him, loving him, and just having a life with him. Then when I wake up I start to remember being with him again and I feel really lonely and empty... It will never happen and every time I think ( Read more... )

I hate love also. I hate it so much. It pulls you away from the things you want and it hurts oh so much. I would rather not feel anything than to feel everything and be in pain. I would rather be a mindless body, walking around just getting things done. That might actually be happening. I can feel my emotions just slowly switching off and I don't ( Read more... )