no luck, no no luck, the black angels chill my mood. my rotation of daily activities excites me! yet money is always a Thhannnggg. june 19 middle school goes on summer break. june 15th Orange lounge exists no more! Which works me down to Thursdays and Sunday of employment only! i need and want a summer job! i want to extinguish all Retail ( Read more... )

fuckfuckffuck fuck fuck fuck fuck, fuck fuck fuck.

how do debt collectors live with themselves? when they get off work and go back to there normal lives.. how do they leave it behind em? eek, not the type of work i would ever be able to handle that's for sure.

I still completly trip on how my ideals have altered. i used to day dream about the fast track of things and wish to wander this earth forever. it was my goal! Now when i close my eyes to dream i have a modest house with a yard and a chicken coop. I have a place to set up an alter, i work just enough to be stable, and i take mini vacations just ( Read more... )

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i have a very important email coming soon so i keep hitting refresh on my gmail account. GAHH! other than that this is the 2nd time ive gone to class and my teacher's canceled it. SO ANNOYING. it costs me 4 bucks to get there and back for no class. rarr ( Read more... )

i'm kinda worried about this weekend! none the less i leave in about 10 min for berkeley to run myself wild with the resumes. I'm trying not to put too much pressure on anything that happens because regardless i have a roof over my head and 2 jobs here. but it sure would be a nnniiicceeee. hell im just looking forward to drivin up the coast and ( Read more... )

options option options. the never ending game of choices. soul searching is faux, it's just chooooseing (and the time between it).

i havnt yet awarded myself for becoming panic-attack free. i hadnt because i had forgotten what they were like. moments ago the feeling arose... but because it's been so long and it felt so strange i was able to stop it before it fully started. im glad it happened because it instantly flashed back a feeling i used to have 3 or 4 times a day living ( Read more... )

it's the same thing I've said a million times but these kids humble my heart so much! I love witnessing the friendships at there age. how they protect each other and watch each others back, it seems the older we get the more we loose that and start only protecting ourselves. we become bitter due to the circumstances of life. forgetting the whole “ ( Read more... )