this canada trip was really the eye opener i needed. i've somehow sorted out a means of confidence in who i am that i either haven't had in a long time or haven't ever had. it was intersting how all the weeks gone i danced around beaches and lakes, roamed road to road and never once felt ashamed or insecure.but apon my first day back i foolishly ( Read more... )

i am starting an organic farm with a few friends of mine in costa mesa, we worked our sweaty heart out the other day. so fun, so much more work to go! so worth it.

tomorrow morning:

CANADA

i need to either have a nest to build or i'll fly away.

instead it seems ive gathered little piles of sticks and strings in every town i've lived.

this pile here isnt very high.

i got the best complement from a semi stranger today ( Read more... )

holy shiit i ran into "him" for the first time and i didnt attack, how foolish of me. you always invision that moment that its gonna happen in a diff. way, in a way that leads some hero fantasy.. when really it comes down to it we are all coward lions looking for our Oz. so im left with "oh well next time ill get him ( Read more... )

i'm excited about the new harry potter ( Read more... )

you gypsy woman you gypsy woman take my soul in the direction it seeks. make my unrest lay silent for a moment. closes my mind off to all whispers of negative aggression i feel inside ( Read more... )

i kind of shut down today.

i had an awakening yesterday. ill write about it soon, when my hearts not so blurry of what happened.

i enjoy when people ignore my existance.

syke.